Never before have I ever thought I had to rant about why I rant. For those that read my blogs or my ranting bits on other places understand why I rant, right? It has nothing to do with trying to make something change that I dislike. It is simply I am freakin complaining about it so I can get the rising anger out in a healthy way as well as to express myself. Simply, ranting is my stress reliever. So if I am ranting please just let me rant so I can get it out of my system instead of damn poking holes in my logic trying to make me understand that me being upset isn't helping the situation. I am aware of that. All I am doing is getting the emotions out of my system. How hard is that to understand? Why must I break it down any simpler?
I rant about most anything I dislike or have an issue with. Ranting is complaining and complaining is healthy (this does not mean those whiners who complain about the same thing everytiem they get the chance, or the ones that want sympathy). I'm talking complaining as full rants that have an actual reason behind them. All my rants from my blog tell why they annoy me and what can be done to resolve the issue. Though sometimes I do get so pissed off I just want to rant about it and rally up others to help solve the issue. Depending on what the issue is, lets say a facebook page that i strongly disapprove of, I will report the page then share the link with friends so they can report it. I then rant about it and move on with my life. That's it. Yes, I get upset but I'm human with emotions so it's unavoidable. But I do NOT dwell on the issue. I damn rant about it and move on. I know being upset won't change anything but hell that doesn't mean I can't rant about it.
Seriously, how many times must I explain it? I rant about things that I don't like that upsets or annoys me then I move on to something else. It's not that hard to understand, but why did I have to continuously explain to a friend who totaly missed my point about the rant? This friend first told me to ignore it, not be angry because it "gives it attention" (concerning the page of trolls), and my report was invalid since it was unaffective. Then still didn't understand to where he/she said "i'm trying to tell you just cause your upset doesnt mean things will change". Totally missing my point! Just because I'm upset doesn't mean I think things will change. I'm upset because it made me mad and i'm ranting because i'm upset. I rant about something then I will move on. How many times must I say it? I rant, it's what I'm known for and anyone that knows me knows I love to rant.
I never would have guessed I'd rant about why I rant. Don't people already know why I rant? I know now I'm just repeating myself but I'm in disbelief that I have to rant about why I rant because a friend totally misunderstood the simple phrase "im just ranting". Ranting makes me happy! No it doesn't solve the problem but hell I feel better pouring my emotions out. So therefore let me rant for I will be better later. Ranting is good. Ranting means i won't bite your head off when i snap for holding my emotions inside -_- So no telling me to calm down when I'm upset and let me damn rant!
Ok, I'm done ranting about why I rant.
Spirit of the wolves
I am the wolf, hear me howl!
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Friday, November 2, 2012
To Keep a Friend you must to be a Friend.
What makes a friend, a friend? There's many kinds of friends but they all have things in common that makes them a friend. We all go through life having friends but how many real friends does a person gain? How do you even tell if a friend is true or not? I used to believe having lots of friends is a good thing since it meant I loved, but now I only want friends who are true friends which I have down to less than 10. I think it's better to have a few real friends than a bunch of fakes. And currently I am often reminded who are the real ones and who are the fakes.
The saying goes "if you want a friend then you have to be a friend" which is absolutly true because if you don't treat your friends well then they will leave you to find a better friend. Then when you wind up all alone all you can do is blame yourself because it was you who made them walk away. Don't pull that "they all are against me. they are the bad friends" crap because if you have many friends against you then that applies that you are the problem, not them. In order to have friends you must be a friend yourself because if you don't then no one wants to be friends with someone they can't trust.
How can you be a friend? Well there are many simple ways to be a real friend that are easy to follow. Friendship is a two-way street meaning you have to give back as the other person gives to you. If you just take all the time then you are not being a friend to the other person. To give something is always being there for them when they need you and caring for their feelings. It is wrong to purposly hurt someone and if you do then you need to apologize, because you don't want a friend hurting you so why would you hurt them? If you only care about your own feelings that makes you self-centered and no one wants to be freinds with someone who only cares about themselves. Friends care about each other.
Trust plays a very important role in a friendship because if you cannot trust someone then how can you be friends with them? Friends don't lie to each other regardless the reason, nor do they blab behind your back. Why would you have to lie to a friend? Lying means you don't care enough about them to tell them the truth, and without truth there is no friendship. Don't lie. Also what kind of friend talks badly behind another's back? Spreading rumors and insulting the person makes you sound like a jealous insecure jerk, and who wants to be friends with a person like that? That also is harming your friend when you do that, and as i said before that is not a quality of being a friend.
Communication is another important factor and i'm not talking about talking everyday about random chitchat (which is a good thing to have), but the communication where you can talk things out without being scared to speak. Friends should be able to tell anything to each other and not fear the other's response (such as rage), and if you can't talk with your friend civily then you need to rethink your actions. Friends don't lash out with words of hatred and refuse to hear the other side talk. They try to compromise and work thorugh whatever disagreement they had. Would you want to be friends with someone who attacks everything you say? If not then why don't you listen and talk civily instead? Lashing out with words of hate means you don't care about your friend's feelings which makes you not care about your friend in general. Friends don't harm their friends. The same goes for ignorign them, it' is wrong to do because you are not communicating. If you don't want to be ignored then why would you ignore them? Learn to communicate.
Friends always support each other in troublesom times. They never turn their back on a friend regardless the reason. They will support you, and do their best to make your troubles gone. And you should do the same because that's what friends do for each other; they support one another. If you want someone to help you out in times of need then you should help them out as well. This is part of the give method of friendship. You are there for one another. You never bring the person down regardless the reason because that makes you a harrible person. Why would you want to see your friend suffer? Again be there for one another and do good things for each other.
It all comes down is being a good person to your friend and they will return the favor. If you are losing friends then maybe you should ask the question "why?" and look at your own actions. No one loses friends quickly without a valid reason, and that reason could be you. Change your behavior to them and they will stay, but if you don't then don't complain if you have no friends. People don't like to be treated badly, and will stay away from those who harm them. Treat others how you wish to be treated. If a freind throws away the friendship over an argument and refuses to listen to reason then they weren't your friend to begin with. Friends care for one another and if one doesn't care then there is no friendship anymore. Be nice to your friends because you could lose them making you wind up alone without anyone to support you.
The saying goes "if you want a friend then you have to be a friend" which is absolutly true because if you don't treat your friends well then they will leave you to find a better friend. Then when you wind up all alone all you can do is blame yourself because it was you who made them walk away. Don't pull that "they all are against me. they are the bad friends" crap because if you have many friends against you then that applies that you are the problem, not them. In order to have friends you must be a friend yourself because if you don't then no one wants to be friends with someone they can't trust.
How can you be a friend? Well there are many simple ways to be a real friend that are easy to follow. Friendship is a two-way street meaning you have to give back as the other person gives to you. If you just take all the time then you are not being a friend to the other person. To give something is always being there for them when they need you and caring for their feelings. It is wrong to purposly hurt someone and if you do then you need to apologize, because you don't want a friend hurting you so why would you hurt them? If you only care about your own feelings that makes you self-centered and no one wants to be freinds with someone who only cares about themselves. Friends care about each other.
Trust plays a very important role in a friendship because if you cannot trust someone then how can you be friends with them? Friends don't lie to each other regardless the reason, nor do they blab behind your back. Why would you have to lie to a friend? Lying means you don't care enough about them to tell them the truth, and without truth there is no friendship. Don't lie. Also what kind of friend talks badly behind another's back? Spreading rumors and insulting the person makes you sound like a jealous insecure jerk, and who wants to be friends with a person like that? That also is harming your friend when you do that, and as i said before that is not a quality of being a friend.
Communication is another important factor and i'm not talking about talking everyday about random chitchat (which is a good thing to have), but the communication where you can talk things out without being scared to speak. Friends should be able to tell anything to each other and not fear the other's response (such as rage), and if you can't talk with your friend civily then you need to rethink your actions. Friends don't lash out with words of hatred and refuse to hear the other side talk. They try to compromise and work thorugh whatever disagreement they had. Would you want to be friends with someone who attacks everything you say? If not then why don't you listen and talk civily instead? Lashing out with words of hate means you don't care about your friend's feelings which makes you not care about your friend in general. Friends don't harm their friends. The same goes for ignorign them, it' is wrong to do because you are not communicating. If you don't want to be ignored then why would you ignore them? Learn to communicate.
Friends always support each other in troublesom times. They never turn their back on a friend regardless the reason. They will support you, and do their best to make your troubles gone. And you should do the same because that's what friends do for each other; they support one another. If you want someone to help you out in times of need then you should help them out as well. This is part of the give method of friendship. You are there for one another. You never bring the person down regardless the reason because that makes you a harrible person. Why would you want to see your friend suffer? Again be there for one another and do good things for each other.
It all comes down is being a good person to your friend and they will return the favor. If you are losing friends then maybe you should ask the question "why?" and look at your own actions. No one loses friends quickly without a valid reason, and that reason could be you. Change your behavior to them and they will stay, but if you don't then don't complain if you have no friends. People don't like to be treated badly, and will stay away from those who harm them. Treat others how you wish to be treated. If a freind throws away the friendship over an argument and refuses to listen to reason then they weren't your friend to begin with. Friends care for one another and if one doesn't care then there is no friendship anymore. Be nice to your friends because you could lose them making you wind up alone without anyone to support you.
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Why can't we Coexist?
Before I begin let me remind everyone that this is MY opinions in MY blog so no flaming is allowed. First off religion is a touchy subject and everyone believes in different things wether you are a Christian, Jewish, Catholic, Atheist, etc. it doesn't matter because we all live within this world and we need to learn to accept each other regardless of how we believe. You believe what you want and let me believe what I want. Now this is my opinion and my rant regarding religion so don't get upset if it is different than what you believe. I would like to say I was raised on Christian beliefs but I consider myself an Agnostic (someone who does not reject nor accept the existance of God. There is no facts to prove or disprove the existance.) meaning I believe in a higher power but I'm still searching for answers.
One major issue I have in religion is, what i stated in the very beginning, when people start bashing each other and forcing their beliefs on to another just because they don't believe a certain thing. I'm talking about all sides, religious and non-religious people here. Stop with trying to force YOUR belief onto others because it's wrong. Yes, there are stories within religious texts (The Bible, Koran, etc.) that may be false, but that gives you no right to try to prove God doesn't exits just because you don't believe in God. Yes, there could be truth to the existance of a God but again that gives you no right to make someone believe in God. As long as the people, regardless of their religion, is living a good life then who cares what they believe? I'm sick and tired of seeing people arguing over religion where ever I go and those arguments become brutal. Agree to disagree and move on with your life. Why would you want to take someone's faith away from them? Why would you want to force your faith onto a person who is happy with their life? If you dont' want someone forcing their beliefs onto you then don't force yours onto them regardless of how "right' you think they are. This concerns everybody! Atheists and religious people need to stop this endless war of who's "correct" in the existance of God because it's pointless.
With that previous paraghraph being said this next part is MY opinion and I'm not forcing anyone to change their ways but I really need to rant because what's next is things that annoy me.
I was reading something on FB about a random person doing something generous for a complete stranger, and in the comments section I noticed many people saying "God was guiding that man" or "Jesus touched that man!" and it irked me a bit then I came across a comment that made sense that said something on the lines of "Why is it when a person is good it's God's work but when a person does something bad it's humanity's fault? Why can't there be only a good person?" Why is that? I then seen another comment replying to the previous saying God is all good. But regardless of how good God may be isn't it our decisions to be good or bad? It comes to a contradiction sense they say if you are good then you will be "rewarded" but how can we get "rewarded" if it's God who's doing our actions for us? Blah blah blah we all know about the contradictions and there's too many questions not enough answers so I will end that there, but what irks me is not the contradition but the fact that people always assume God is making your descisions for you. I don't agree with that and I strongly believe you are the master of your choices regardless of what it may be. We have both evil and good within us but it's our descision to pick which one to follow. Yeah, God is good and "infuences people' but it's still YOUR choice to do good deeds. It doesn't matter what you believe cause you are the controler of your actions. No one or force controls you.
That force also implies to the devil regarding the evil deeds taht people do. Again, I don't believe the devil makes you do evil deeds, nor do I believe God makes you do good deeds. The deeds are your choice regardless of what you choose. To be totally honest, I don't believe in the devil. I know the story behind him from what I hear around me and what people tell. I haven't finished the bible (I'm still reading the old testiment) and I haven't came across Lucifer's story yet, but there is no devil in the Old Testiment as I have read so far (which isn't that far to be honest). Remember, I am agnostic so I don't believe every single religious thing I see or hear, and this part of religion I don't believe in. I'm sorry but I do not believe in a devil. I do believe in demons to an extent such as evil spirits but those are rare. Honestly, I think the concept of a devil is an excuse for someone's evil deeds because they can't take responsibility for their bad actions. Again, YOU make YOUR own actions and implying that some force influences you is just an excuse to me.
Another thing that irks me is whenever something happens wether it's a cold a person has or whatever they always want people to "pray" for them. People seem to always want prayers for anything that happens to them. I understand praying is part of someone's faith and it is a comfort when something bad happens and you want others to help you through it, but the only time I think it's appropiate for prayers is when something is life threatning such as a family member being hospitilized, huge damage such as wrecks, floods, etc., and just very hardships that zaps your mental strength. I find it annoying when people ask for prayers over simple things such as a mere cold because that's like saying you are helpless. I'm not saying you don't deserve sympathy from others because being sick or something of that nature does make you miserable, but asking for a prayer? That's taking it too far, and defiantly when some people don't pray. I'm not ashamed but I don't pray because I don't see the point unless it's life threatning. In my whole life I only prayed about three times and those were three people were hospitilized for being very ill (one was prostate cancer, very bad omonia (sp?), and i can't remember the other) . I have also prayed for someone's safety. Yes, I understand why people pray everynight and being thankful to their higher power for what they have. That's fine with me, but please don't force me to. I am very thankful and blessed for all that I have but I don't need to voice it every day of every time to a higher power. I am thankful and I know I am thankful so that is all I need.
This one has to do with the you-choose-your-own-choice rant in previous paraghraphs but a bit different. I absolutly cannot stand when people say "God has a plan for you" because I don't believe anything is in the control of my life but me. I do believe things happen for a reason but it's you who can choose what happens next by your actions. Think of it like this: you are given these doors to walk through and it's your descision to which one you go through. that's what I believe. Things do happen for a reason but you make the choice of the door you walk through. So I don't like hearing "God has a plan for you" because that's like saying he is driving you to your destination, and you are powerless which I think is false. I make my choices and refuse to believe some force is making them for me due to some "plan". I don't belive your destiny is written in stone. It's written in the sand and you hold the stick. As I continue to say things happen for a reason but it's up to you to choose which reason you want to have or follow, and that implies your destiny or fate in life.
This next one is a big issue and I know affects many others. Remember what I said about religious and non-religious people focring their believes upon each other? Well this next one falls under that catagory. Again I want to remind everyone I'm agnostic so I don't believe ever single thing what I see or hear regarding religion, which includes stuff from the bible. I firmly DON"T believe someone is going to hell for a particular "sin" that religious people are fond of judging people on. I don't really believe in "sin" either since it's too judgmental and nowadays anything is "sin". I believe in evil deeds such as harming others in any act or form. I don't believe loving your own gender is evil, having sex before marriage (though I frown upon those under 18 having sex), someone not believing in your particular God, and any others that I am forgetting, I do NOT believe those are evil or should be "sins". I only believe if someone harms another should be considered evil because you are purposly harming someone for your own benefit. I believe as long as you are a good person at heart and live the best way you can you should never be considered "evil" or "damned to hell". Anyone that says otherwise is wrong and a hypocrite for does it not say "those without sin may cast the first stone"? And since every one "sins" then you have no right to judge. Do NOT force your beliefs on another!
Well, I will end this rant here because it is getting long and I don't have anymore particular rants at the moment. There are plenty more but I cannot remember them all at this moment. I know this post may offend people but again this is my opinions and things that irk me. I am not a religious person but I do believe that a higher power is out there somewhere regardless of what it may be. I believe we have good and evil within us but we are in full control of which we choose to do. I believe we all should respect each other and stop trying to force our beliefs on another. I believe if we are good hearted and do good deeds then we should not be judged wrongly due to a "sin" that does not harm anyone. I believe there has to be something more after death regardless of what it is. I believe prayer isn't necissary unless it's a life-death situation that has you very worried about something. And I believe that we all can coexist without people hating oen another because their beliefs are different. Live and let live, and respect one another. We do only get one life, so why do we spend it hating on the differnet religions because it's differnet? I am agnostic for a reason and that reason is because I have more questions than answers. I am happy being agnostic so please don't change me because you don't like it. My family is Christains, I have religious and Atheists friends, and I am informed of majority of religious beliefs so I don't think i'm just some girl who don't know what she is talking about, because I assure you I know exactly what I'm saying. I have seen both sides of the religious "war" and both sides are neither right or wrong so quit arguing and accept each other already.
One major issue I have in religion is, what i stated in the very beginning, when people start bashing each other and forcing their beliefs on to another just because they don't believe a certain thing. I'm talking about all sides, religious and non-religious people here. Stop with trying to force YOUR belief onto others because it's wrong. Yes, there are stories within religious texts (The Bible, Koran, etc.) that may be false, but that gives you no right to try to prove God doesn't exits just because you don't believe in God. Yes, there could be truth to the existance of a God but again that gives you no right to make someone believe in God. As long as the people, regardless of their religion, is living a good life then who cares what they believe? I'm sick and tired of seeing people arguing over religion where ever I go and those arguments become brutal. Agree to disagree and move on with your life. Why would you want to take someone's faith away from them? Why would you want to force your faith onto a person who is happy with their life? If you dont' want someone forcing their beliefs onto you then don't force yours onto them regardless of how "right' you think they are. This concerns everybody! Atheists and religious people need to stop this endless war of who's "correct" in the existance of God because it's pointless.
With that previous paraghraph being said this next part is MY opinion and I'm not forcing anyone to change their ways but I really need to rant because what's next is things that annoy me.
I was reading something on FB about a random person doing something generous for a complete stranger, and in the comments section I noticed many people saying "God was guiding that man" or "Jesus touched that man!" and it irked me a bit then I came across a comment that made sense that said something on the lines of "Why is it when a person is good it's God's work but when a person does something bad it's humanity's fault? Why can't there be only a good person?" Why is that? I then seen another comment replying to the previous saying God is all good. But regardless of how good God may be isn't it our decisions to be good or bad? It comes to a contradiction sense they say if you are good then you will be "rewarded" but how can we get "rewarded" if it's God who's doing our actions for us? Blah blah blah we all know about the contradictions and there's too many questions not enough answers so I will end that there, but what irks me is not the contradition but the fact that people always assume God is making your descisions for you. I don't agree with that and I strongly believe you are the master of your choices regardless of what it may be. We have both evil and good within us but it's our descision to pick which one to follow. Yeah, God is good and "infuences people' but it's still YOUR choice to do good deeds. It doesn't matter what you believe cause you are the controler of your actions. No one or force controls you.
That force also implies to the devil regarding the evil deeds taht people do. Again, I don't believe the devil makes you do evil deeds, nor do I believe God makes you do good deeds. The deeds are your choice regardless of what you choose. To be totally honest, I don't believe in the devil. I know the story behind him from what I hear around me and what people tell. I haven't finished the bible (I'm still reading the old testiment) and I haven't came across Lucifer's story yet, but there is no devil in the Old Testiment as I have read so far (which isn't that far to be honest). Remember, I am agnostic so I don't believe every single religious thing I see or hear, and this part of religion I don't believe in. I'm sorry but I do not believe in a devil. I do believe in demons to an extent such as evil spirits but those are rare. Honestly, I think the concept of a devil is an excuse for someone's evil deeds because they can't take responsibility for their bad actions. Again, YOU make YOUR own actions and implying that some force influences you is just an excuse to me.
Another thing that irks me is whenever something happens wether it's a cold a person has or whatever they always want people to "pray" for them. People seem to always want prayers for anything that happens to them. I understand praying is part of someone's faith and it is a comfort when something bad happens and you want others to help you through it, but the only time I think it's appropiate for prayers is when something is life threatning such as a family member being hospitilized, huge damage such as wrecks, floods, etc., and just very hardships that zaps your mental strength. I find it annoying when people ask for prayers over simple things such as a mere cold because that's like saying you are helpless. I'm not saying you don't deserve sympathy from others because being sick or something of that nature does make you miserable, but asking for a prayer? That's taking it too far, and defiantly when some people don't pray. I'm not ashamed but I don't pray because I don't see the point unless it's life threatning. In my whole life I only prayed about three times and those were three people were hospitilized for being very ill (one was prostate cancer, very bad omonia (sp?), and i can't remember the other) . I have also prayed for someone's safety. Yes, I understand why people pray everynight and being thankful to their higher power for what they have. That's fine with me, but please don't force me to. I am very thankful and blessed for all that I have but I don't need to voice it every day of every time to a higher power. I am thankful and I know I am thankful so that is all I need.
This one has to do with the you-choose-your-own-choice rant in previous paraghraphs but a bit different. I absolutly cannot stand when people say "God has a plan for you" because I don't believe anything is in the control of my life but me. I do believe things happen for a reason but it's you who can choose what happens next by your actions. Think of it like this: you are given these doors to walk through and it's your descision to which one you go through. that's what I believe. Things do happen for a reason but you make the choice of the door you walk through. So I don't like hearing "God has a plan for you" because that's like saying he is driving you to your destination, and you are powerless which I think is false. I make my choices and refuse to believe some force is making them for me due to some "plan". I don't belive your destiny is written in stone. It's written in the sand and you hold the stick. As I continue to say things happen for a reason but it's up to you to choose which reason you want to have or follow, and that implies your destiny or fate in life.
This next one is a big issue and I know affects many others. Remember what I said about religious and non-religious people focring their believes upon each other? Well this next one falls under that catagory. Again I want to remind everyone I'm agnostic so I don't believe ever single thing what I see or hear regarding religion, which includes stuff from the bible. I firmly DON"T believe someone is going to hell for a particular "sin" that religious people are fond of judging people on. I don't really believe in "sin" either since it's too judgmental and nowadays anything is "sin". I believe in evil deeds such as harming others in any act or form. I don't believe loving your own gender is evil, having sex before marriage (though I frown upon those under 18 having sex), someone not believing in your particular God, and any others that I am forgetting, I do NOT believe those are evil or should be "sins". I only believe if someone harms another should be considered evil because you are purposly harming someone for your own benefit. I believe as long as you are a good person at heart and live the best way you can you should never be considered "evil" or "damned to hell". Anyone that says otherwise is wrong and a hypocrite for does it not say "those without sin may cast the first stone"? And since every one "sins" then you have no right to judge. Do NOT force your beliefs on another!
Well, I will end this rant here because it is getting long and I don't have anymore particular rants at the moment. There are plenty more but I cannot remember them all at this moment. I know this post may offend people but again this is my opinions and things that irk me. I am not a religious person but I do believe that a higher power is out there somewhere regardless of what it may be. I believe we have good and evil within us but we are in full control of which we choose to do. I believe we all should respect each other and stop trying to force our beliefs on another. I believe if we are good hearted and do good deeds then we should not be judged wrongly due to a "sin" that does not harm anyone. I believe there has to be something more after death regardless of what it is. I believe prayer isn't necissary unless it's a life-death situation that has you very worried about something. And I believe that we all can coexist without people hating oen another because their beliefs are different. Live and let live, and respect one another. We do only get one life, so why do we spend it hating on the differnet religions because it's differnet? I am agnostic for a reason and that reason is because I have more questions than answers. I am happy being agnostic so please don't change me because you don't like it. My family is Christains, I have religious and Atheists friends, and I am informed of majority of religious beliefs so I don't think i'm just some girl who don't know what she is talking about, because I assure you I know exactly what I'm saying. I have seen both sides of the religious "war" and both sides are neither right or wrong so quit arguing and accept each other already.
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Immaturity in Family Drama
I need to rant about certain types of people, which most of them I happen to be related to. Everyone knows least one person that uses others to get what they want then they play the victim when things go wrong, or even blaming everything else for what went wrong. Yeah, I know many people like this and even related to some who I can't escape from unless I move. This is mostly a family rant which is not about my parents. As usual no names are named for privacy and safety reasons. Also the quotes used are not directed at me but at other family members, I'm just stuck in the middle of all this shit.
I have absolutly no repsect for these types of people regardless of who they are, because what right do they have to take from those that work their butts off while they sit on thier butts? Then have the damn courage to say "I work for what I got." which is a lie cause all that money the person has he/she freakin leeched off of others! Winning the lottery doesn't make you better neither cause it doesn't change the fact you use people to get what you want and damn talk badly behind their backs. Are you damn proud of yourself? Of course you are since you have no guilt, not even for your own damn family or friends. That house isn't even yours! You freakin' blackmailed the idiot who had it last which was engaged to your "partner" before you came along. Stop acting like the damn king/queen of the hill when you are a joker in disguise.
Oh not to mention if you happen to say "no" to them they pull the guilt trip on you or say shit like "you don't know how it is". You're right, I don't know how it is only because i"m smart enough not to put myself in that poor position that you dug yourself into for making lousy choices. They make it out like their the victim and it's your fault for not helping them even though you warned them beforehand about their poor choices. For once in your life, man/woman up! Take responsibility for the actions you made and find a logical way of fixing it. Take the advice of others for once. We am not here to hold your hand and hand you every single penny we have so you can walk again. No, that is not happening. You many guilt trip this small family, your blood, but once i move I ain't helping damn no one who can't walk for themselves! I'm sorry but if you made better choices like we told you then you wouldn't be in that mess and trying to pull us down with you. The guilt trips is a lousy way to get what you want and shows how immature you really are.
Why can't people just take responsibility anymore? Why the fuck do they have to use others for them to pull through? You get disability, a free check with no work, so how the hell are you broke all the time? If you hate taking care of grown people then stop taking care of them if it stresses you out so much! They are damn grown ups so they can damn take care of themselves. One car can't survive 5 different people driving it all the time! And you can't keep borrowing our car since we need it for work/school when yours broke down cause you don't know how to say "no" to others. Stop the damn drama! Seriously, you are a grown person so start acting like one and stop crying when you don't get your way. Saying sucidal things won't get you no where either and it makes me want to put you in a pshycological hospital since you rather end your life just because you cannot handle the stress. Stop counting your troubles and remember your blessings! It's those damn pain/nerve pills you are taken that has clouded your mind. You used to be such a better person than this until you started digging that hole of yours. Now you can't climb out so you are pulling us in with you.
I'm sorry but this is too immature for my taste and it's pathetic the way people like this acts. A child acts better than this! Stop playing the victim cause you get no sympathy from me when it's your damn fault for your "stress" and the problems that come with it. I have no more respect. I know people who work every day in awful jobs for their money to live in this world, but you people walk right in and ask for it like it's nothing then whine when we refuse it. I refuse to help out people who take advantage of others regardless of who they are. I don't care if you hate me for it but I refuse it. I'm talking about anybody who takes advantage of a person. Cry all you want, ignore us, bring our names into the ground, and hate us until you can't no more, I don't even care, because you dug your hole and you have hands so pick up a shovel and dig yourself out.
Also this never-ending war isnt' my battle so stop putting me in the middle! Don't talk all warmly to me saying "I help my family in every way i can. I don't know why my name gets used harshly" because I don't want no part of this. You surely don't want my opinion because I will speak the words in this rant. You people are damn immature so grow the fuck up already! I used to look up to you y'all when i was growing up...now y'all have lost all my respect. How does that make you feel? And don't pull any of that "you are young" shit cause I am far more mature than any of you. Tell me, how does it feel to lose the respect of the person you love so much? I love my family but doesn't mean I have to respect them when they act like this. Just grow up already...
I will end my rant here before I make it too long. I really needed to rant and I don't care if others are offended by bad language. This is my blog, please just ignore the language if it bothers you.
I have absolutly no repsect for these types of people regardless of who they are, because what right do they have to take from those that work their butts off while they sit on thier butts? Then have the damn courage to say "I work for what I got." which is a lie cause all that money the person has he/she freakin leeched off of others! Winning the lottery doesn't make you better neither cause it doesn't change the fact you use people to get what you want and damn talk badly behind their backs. Are you damn proud of yourself? Of course you are since you have no guilt, not even for your own damn family or friends. That house isn't even yours! You freakin' blackmailed the idiot who had it last which was engaged to your "partner" before you came along. Stop acting like the damn king/queen of the hill when you are a joker in disguise.
Oh not to mention if you happen to say "no" to them they pull the guilt trip on you or say shit like "you don't know how it is". You're right, I don't know how it is only because i"m smart enough not to put myself in that poor position that you dug yourself into for making lousy choices. They make it out like their the victim and it's your fault for not helping them even though you warned them beforehand about their poor choices. For once in your life, man/woman up! Take responsibility for the actions you made and find a logical way of fixing it. Take the advice of others for once. We am not here to hold your hand and hand you every single penny we have so you can walk again. No, that is not happening. You many guilt trip this small family, your blood, but once i move I ain't helping damn no one who can't walk for themselves! I'm sorry but if you made better choices like we told you then you wouldn't be in that mess and trying to pull us down with you. The guilt trips is a lousy way to get what you want and shows how immature you really are.
Why can't people just take responsibility anymore? Why the fuck do they have to use others for them to pull through? You get disability, a free check with no work, so how the hell are you broke all the time? If you hate taking care of grown people then stop taking care of them if it stresses you out so much! They are damn grown ups so they can damn take care of themselves. One car can't survive 5 different people driving it all the time! And you can't keep borrowing our car since we need it for work/school when yours broke down cause you don't know how to say "no" to others. Stop the damn drama! Seriously, you are a grown person so start acting like one and stop crying when you don't get your way. Saying sucidal things won't get you no where either and it makes me want to put you in a pshycological hospital since you rather end your life just because you cannot handle the stress. Stop counting your troubles and remember your blessings! It's those damn pain/nerve pills you are taken that has clouded your mind. You used to be such a better person than this until you started digging that hole of yours. Now you can't climb out so you are pulling us in with you.
I'm sorry but this is too immature for my taste and it's pathetic the way people like this acts. A child acts better than this! Stop playing the victim cause you get no sympathy from me when it's your damn fault for your "stress" and the problems that come with it. I have no more respect. I know people who work every day in awful jobs for their money to live in this world, but you people walk right in and ask for it like it's nothing then whine when we refuse it. I refuse to help out people who take advantage of others regardless of who they are. I don't care if you hate me for it but I refuse it. I'm talking about anybody who takes advantage of a person. Cry all you want, ignore us, bring our names into the ground, and hate us until you can't no more, I don't even care, because you dug your hole and you have hands so pick up a shovel and dig yourself out.
Also this never-ending war isnt' my battle so stop putting me in the middle! Don't talk all warmly to me saying "I help my family in every way i can. I don't know why my name gets used harshly" because I don't want no part of this. You surely don't want my opinion because I will speak the words in this rant. You people are damn immature so grow the fuck up already! I used to look up to you y'all when i was growing up...now y'all have lost all my respect. How does that make you feel? And don't pull any of that "you are young" shit cause I am far more mature than any of you. Tell me, how does it feel to lose the respect of the person you love so much? I love my family but doesn't mean I have to respect them when they act like this. Just grow up already...
I will end my rant here before I make it too long. I really needed to rant and I don't care if others are offended by bad language. This is my blog, please just ignore the language if it bothers you.
Monday, September 3, 2012
There is a line between humorous and plain sickness.
First off I know people have a broad of different opinions and we shouldn't take everything so seriously, but there is a fine line between humor and plain sickness. It seems people cross that line then call you "butthurt" if you think their humor is sick. Well here is a rant about my opinion on something I found online on a social site I go to.
To start off I should tell you what I found. Some guy posted a cartoon/drawing picture of where this man stabs a pregnant woman, cuts her open and takes out her baby to french kiss it. I'm not lying, I damn seen this! What is worse least three people commented (including the poster) thought this was hilarous! Five people clicked the 'like" button (no it's not Facebook). Tell me, what would your first thought on this? Those people treated the whole thing as a joke and called people "butthurt" for saying how "sick it is". Then mocking others saying "Cartoon babies are people too" then another saying "OMG whoever posted this is going to hell..lol!" I reported this picture least three times hoping it gets taken down.
My opinion is to why this is sick because who the hell would do this? To kill an innocent pregnant woman just to kiss her baby? Tell me would you do this in reality? Secondly, how is this funny? You just laughed at killing an innocent human being and violating a infant child that hasn't even been born, it looked still in his final fetus form. It's damn sick! Yes you can post what you want but I have the right to damn report it since I'm the one that has to see it. I'm not "butthurt" I'm damn grossed out by that sense of "humor" which isn't even humor at all.
To the reply of "cartoon are babies too" in that mocking tone. Yes it's a cartoon but saying a cartoon like this is ok is a step closer to the actual thing. I've seen enough episodes of Snapped, Blood Lies and Alibies, Deadly Women, and bunch of other stuff my parents watch (since there isn't much to watch my mom watches those) so I know what people are capable of. Ask yourself, would you want some maniac to do that to you? If the answer is no then you probably shouldn't be laughing now, should you? It may not be real now but some mental case sicko will get reality and imaginary mixed up doing an act like that. So go ahead and keep saying "it's only a cartoon" just remember that in today's world a "cartoon" is a new idea for some sicko.
Next is that obnouxious reply "OMG whoever posted this is going to hell...lol!" Uh first off I know atheists who would be sickened by this picture! So don't you dare blame religion for people not liking this picture. I'm agnostic that was raised with Christian beliefs, and forgive me for this language but I do hope this person gets punished for that. Not because he posted a picture, but by mocking others for disliking it and thinking it's humorous for the events in the picture. It's damn wrong! I'm not saying it's wrong because of my beliefs, I think it's wrong because it makes me wanna throw up by just thinking about something like that. You, sir, have a sick fucked up mind and should stop posting sick photos online!
I'm sorry if MY opinion bothers you but it's MY opinion to think you are a sick person. It just makes me so mad seeing people have no respect for anythign anymore. I know I watch things my dad things are "wrong" but the stuff I watch (Family guy, robot chicken, etc.) has a reason to be funny and it makes sense. How in the world does that particular picture make sense? Explain to me how is it funny? Unless you have a reasonable, logical, or any facts at all to why it is funny then get a reality check cause it's not funny. It is wrong, disrespectful and sick. Yeah, you have the right to believe what you want but i have the right to report whatever wrong picture you put online that I have to view everytime I open my Live Feed. If you want to be sick then do it on your private time that isn't online for the world to see. -_-
Also I know everyone wants to be "different" and have an "open mind" but again how is it "cool" to have a sick mind? Try something original where you aren't insulting or laughing at pictures that tell you you can kiss a fetus like that. That's not having an "open mind" that's having a messed up personality that could be harmful to yourself and to others. As I keep saying if you wish to have this "lifestyle" then do it somewhere else isntead in public. Don't like people judging you? Don't post it online to be judged. That simple cause I don't get easily instulted by pictures or cartoons, but that was just damn awful what I saw. Even family Guy is cleaner than that and it's a show that got banned from tv stations! Seriously, it has to be bad if someone finds FG milder than something.
Basically people like this is one of the reason the world is corrupted. There is a line between humorous and sick. You, Mr. Sicko, has crossed that line and you annoy me by insulting me just because you can't accept I don't like your picture. I know the person this rant is about won't see this but I needed to rant.
To start off I should tell you what I found. Some guy posted a cartoon/drawing picture of where this man stabs a pregnant woman, cuts her open and takes out her baby to french kiss it. I'm not lying, I damn seen this! What is worse least three people commented (including the poster) thought this was hilarous! Five people clicked the 'like" button (no it's not Facebook). Tell me, what would your first thought on this? Those people treated the whole thing as a joke and called people "butthurt" for saying how "sick it is". Then mocking others saying "Cartoon babies are people too" then another saying "OMG whoever posted this is going to hell..lol!" I reported this picture least three times hoping it gets taken down.
My opinion is to why this is sick because who the hell would do this? To kill an innocent pregnant woman just to kiss her baby? Tell me would you do this in reality? Secondly, how is this funny? You just laughed at killing an innocent human being and violating a infant child that hasn't even been born, it looked still in his final fetus form. It's damn sick! Yes you can post what you want but I have the right to damn report it since I'm the one that has to see it. I'm not "butthurt" I'm damn grossed out by that sense of "humor" which isn't even humor at all.
To the reply of "cartoon are babies too" in that mocking tone. Yes it's a cartoon but saying a cartoon like this is ok is a step closer to the actual thing. I've seen enough episodes of Snapped, Blood Lies and Alibies, Deadly Women, and bunch of other stuff my parents watch (since there isn't much to watch my mom watches those) so I know what people are capable of. Ask yourself, would you want some maniac to do that to you? If the answer is no then you probably shouldn't be laughing now, should you? It may not be real now but some mental case sicko will get reality and imaginary mixed up doing an act like that. So go ahead and keep saying "it's only a cartoon" just remember that in today's world a "cartoon" is a new idea for some sicko.
Next is that obnouxious reply "OMG whoever posted this is going to hell...lol!" Uh first off I know atheists who would be sickened by this picture! So don't you dare blame religion for people not liking this picture. I'm agnostic that was raised with Christian beliefs, and forgive me for this language but I do hope this person gets punished for that. Not because he posted a picture, but by mocking others for disliking it and thinking it's humorous for the events in the picture. It's damn wrong! I'm not saying it's wrong because of my beliefs, I think it's wrong because it makes me wanna throw up by just thinking about something like that. You, sir, have a sick fucked up mind and should stop posting sick photos online!
I'm sorry if MY opinion bothers you but it's MY opinion to think you are a sick person. It just makes me so mad seeing people have no respect for anythign anymore. I know I watch things my dad things are "wrong" but the stuff I watch (Family guy, robot chicken, etc.) has a reason to be funny and it makes sense. How in the world does that particular picture make sense? Explain to me how is it funny? Unless you have a reasonable, logical, or any facts at all to why it is funny then get a reality check cause it's not funny. It is wrong, disrespectful and sick. Yeah, you have the right to believe what you want but i have the right to report whatever wrong picture you put online that I have to view everytime I open my Live Feed. If you want to be sick then do it on your private time that isn't online for the world to see. -_-
Also I know everyone wants to be "different" and have an "open mind" but again how is it "cool" to have a sick mind? Try something original where you aren't insulting or laughing at pictures that tell you you can kiss a fetus like that. That's not having an "open mind" that's having a messed up personality that could be harmful to yourself and to others. As I keep saying if you wish to have this "lifestyle" then do it somewhere else isntead in public. Don't like people judging you? Don't post it online to be judged. That simple cause I don't get easily instulted by pictures or cartoons, but that was just damn awful what I saw. Even family Guy is cleaner than that and it's a show that got banned from tv stations! Seriously, it has to be bad if someone finds FG milder than something.
Basically people like this is one of the reason the world is corrupted. There is a line between humorous and sick. You, Mr. Sicko, has crossed that line and you annoy me by insulting me just because you can't accept I don't like your picture. I know the person this rant is about won't see this but I needed to rant.
Friday, August 31, 2012
The acts of stupidity in relationships
It's been awhile since my last rant and here's another relationship rant. I've been reading lots of Facebook and other social sites regarding relationships and I'm still amazed how stupid people can be. Well in this post I will be talking about specific stupidity from people in relationships.
All identities are never mentioned in my blogs for safety and privacy purposes.
First off the quick relationships are getting annoying. You know the types where they just started dating and it's "true love" at first sight. Then give it a week either they're broken up, engaged/married, or even with child. Oh the many rants about how stupid people can concerning the quick relationships as those. To sum it all up they are stupid. First off why don't they get to know each other before making big decsisions? Date for least three months before deciding if this person is marraige material or least if the relationship will last. How about using condoms if you do have have sex to prevent any pregnancies? Seriously, do people think anymore?
Marriage is when two people who love each other do when they want to live their life together. Note the word "Life" so you will understand what marriage means. It's not something to try for fun because it requires work and devotion to your partner. Are you ready to pay bills together, live in the same house all the time, and spend your time with this person for a lifetime? Think before you act because if you don't know if you "love" this person then you have no right to get married to them. Before you marry you should wait least three months to know if your "love" is even true. Again ever heard of infatuation? It's that giddy feeling that makes you happy when you see a person you like, but if it lasts longer than three months when dating then the love is real. If it's been a week then your so called "love" isnt' real and you are a moron if you want to get married to this person when you only dated a week. Read past rants in this blog to know other opinions regarding what true love really is. Stop confusing infatuation with love! You don't know what damn love is if you have more failed relationships claiming you "loved" each of those people. If you "love" so quickly to different people then you are stupid regarding love. Marriage should be where two people who truly loves each other. Not some immature couple who thinks it's all fun and games with more failed "loves" than they'd like to admit. I repeat slow down and date awhile before you consider marraige! You are just going to mess up your lives if you marry too early than you are ready for.
Next is the relationships regarding pregnancy which is the most stupidest thing someone can do. You may "love" this person and wish to make love to them but are you stupid enough to not to use a condom? Condoms are to prevent pregnancy (not 100% but good enough). Are you ready for a child? Do you know for sure if your partner will stay by your side and help? Can you afford to have a child? Use a condom when you have sex! It's not rocket science so stop acting like an idiot and use one already. But whoops you didn't so know you are pregnant and what I notice is your "love" isnt' sticking around. Either the person wants nothing to do with you and the baby, or they are not trying hard enough. Who's fault is this? Both of yours for being idiots. Now you have a responsibility to that child so she/he comes first regardless. So no more thinking about yourself so man/woman up and take responsibilty for the baby you know have because you didnt' use a condom. The baby deserves a good life with caring parents that put him/her first. No matter what that baby is a blessing but you two are still idiots if you complaining about how "hard it is".
And what bugs me the most about the relatiionships due to pregnancy is when one person complaining about the other not being there for them. Stop your damn complaining cause it's your fault for thinking you were "in love" with them enough to have a baby in the first place. Yes, you have the right to complain but if you let them slack off then again it's your fault. So get off yuor ass and do something about it! Words are only useless if you refuse to put action behind them. Don't like how they never spend time with the baby and you? Make them spend time or leave them. Don't stay with someone who is abusing you (mentally or physically) because they will just make your life harder. Yes it's the baby's mother/father but the child needs to be loved not neglected. Take responsibility. Oh enough with the "We do love each other! we're just going through hard times. he/she is truly a great parent and i just needed to rant" well if you "love" each other than why is every damn post about how awful this person is? Again stop complaining and do something about it. Also stop complaining about how "hard" it is to take care of everything. No one said it was going to be easy! Once more it was your own stupidity that got you in that "mess" so unless you are pointing the finger at yourself, why are you complaining? Those that complain more without doing something to fix it are just idiots who want things handed to them instead of taking responsibility for thier own past actions.
I am sick and tired of hearing a girl gets knocked up then making a whole big show and drama out of their life. It's stupid and degrading to girls everywhere who do make good choices and take responsibility. That show "Teen Moms" is a prime example, Why in the hell would you want to have a child when you aren't even ready? Then you have all this unwanted drama in your life over situations that you handle poorly. Honestly I hate reality shows like Teen Mom and it's bad enough reality is truly like that with stupid people getting pregnant. I feel bad for the babies because they are born to immature parents. I rather be ready mentally and financially before I bring forth a baby into this world becase that way it be less drama and the baby will have a decent life instead of meaningless yelling, having to grow up without both parents who spend time with them, and knowing that is alright to have a child when they are still immature themselves. Ask yourself, would you want your baby to have a baby of their own just like you? If not then stop treating it like it's nothing! It's wrong to have babies when you are not mature enough!
I understand in certain sitations such as rape that it is alright. But that is only because the person was forcefully put into that situation. Unlike you who chose to make a stupid act putting yourself in that situation. Well I could go on and on about how stupid people like that are but then this blog will get too long. the point is it's stupid to get pregnant when you chose not to use a condom when you aren't ready for a child. It's stupid to complain about a hard life when you chose to have that life. It's stupid to "love" someone after dating them a week before you get married or even pregnant. It's stupid to complain about your "love" when you refuse to do anything about their actions. If you don't want to be called stupid then stop doing stupid acts. It's that simple.
Oh and don't say "you have no right to judge me! You dont' know the whole story!" Uh you post it all online so I have every right to say my opinion since you gave me the information. Don't like being judged? Then don't post it online where everyone can see it. Private matters should stay private. Also unlike you I don't make stupid acts. I've been with my partner for going on three years now and we are engaged to only be married when we both have jobs that will support us. We are going to wait least a year after marriage before thinking about kids so we can be ready. This is called planning which you didnt' do. We waited a year before getting engaged and we actually work out our problems if we complain. So I have every right to judge since you are the one complaining about a life that you chose to have while posting online for everyone to see! So once again you are an idiot. Immature isn't of age, it's the level of stupidity.
All identities are never mentioned in my blogs for safety and privacy purposes.
First off the quick relationships are getting annoying. You know the types where they just started dating and it's "true love" at first sight. Then give it a week either they're broken up, engaged/married, or even with child. Oh the many rants about how stupid people can concerning the quick relationships as those. To sum it all up they are stupid. First off why don't they get to know each other before making big decsisions? Date for least three months before deciding if this person is marraige material or least if the relationship will last. How about using condoms if you do have have sex to prevent any pregnancies? Seriously, do people think anymore?
Marriage is when two people who love each other do when they want to live their life together. Note the word "Life" so you will understand what marriage means. It's not something to try for fun because it requires work and devotion to your partner. Are you ready to pay bills together, live in the same house all the time, and spend your time with this person for a lifetime? Think before you act because if you don't know if you "love" this person then you have no right to get married to them. Before you marry you should wait least three months to know if your "love" is even true. Again ever heard of infatuation? It's that giddy feeling that makes you happy when you see a person you like, but if it lasts longer than three months when dating then the love is real. If it's been a week then your so called "love" isnt' real and you are a moron if you want to get married to this person when you only dated a week. Read past rants in this blog to know other opinions regarding what true love really is. Stop confusing infatuation with love! You don't know what damn love is if you have more failed relationships claiming you "loved" each of those people. If you "love" so quickly to different people then you are stupid regarding love. Marriage should be where two people who truly loves each other. Not some immature couple who thinks it's all fun and games with more failed "loves" than they'd like to admit. I repeat slow down and date awhile before you consider marraige! You are just going to mess up your lives if you marry too early than you are ready for.
Next is the relationships regarding pregnancy which is the most stupidest thing someone can do. You may "love" this person and wish to make love to them but are you stupid enough to not to use a condom? Condoms are to prevent pregnancy (not 100% but good enough). Are you ready for a child? Do you know for sure if your partner will stay by your side and help? Can you afford to have a child? Use a condom when you have sex! It's not rocket science so stop acting like an idiot and use one already. But whoops you didn't so know you are pregnant and what I notice is your "love" isnt' sticking around. Either the person wants nothing to do with you and the baby, or they are not trying hard enough. Who's fault is this? Both of yours for being idiots. Now you have a responsibility to that child so she/he comes first regardless. So no more thinking about yourself so man/woman up and take responsibilty for the baby you know have because you didnt' use a condom. The baby deserves a good life with caring parents that put him/her first. No matter what that baby is a blessing but you two are still idiots if you complaining about how "hard it is".
And what bugs me the most about the relatiionships due to pregnancy is when one person complaining about the other not being there for them. Stop your damn complaining cause it's your fault for thinking you were "in love" with them enough to have a baby in the first place. Yes, you have the right to complain but if you let them slack off then again it's your fault. So get off yuor ass and do something about it! Words are only useless if you refuse to put action behind them. Don't like how they never spend time with the baby and you? Make them spend time or leave them. Don't stay with someone who is abusing you (mentally or physically) because they will just make your life harder. Yes it's the baby's mother/father but the child needs to be loved not neglected. Take responsibility. Oh enough with the "We do love each other! we're just going through hard times. he/she is truly a great parent and i just needed to rant" well if you "love" each other than why is every damn post about how awful this person is? Again stop complaining and do something about it. Also stop complaining about how "hard" it is to take care of everything. No one said it was going to be easy! Once more it was your own stupidity that got you in that "mess" so unless you are pointing the finger at yourself, why are you complaining? Those that complain more without doing something to fix it are just idiots who want things handed to them instead of taking responsibility for thier own past actions.
I am sick and tired of hearing a girl gets knocked up then making a whole big show and drama out of their life. It's stupid and degrading to girls everywhere who do make good choices and take responsibility. That show "Teen Moms" is a prime example, Why in the hell would you want to have a child when you aren't even ready? Then you have all this unwanted drama in your life over situations that you handle poorly. Honestly I hate reality shows like Teen Mom and it's bad enough reality is truly like that with stupid people getting pregnant. I feel bad for the babies because they are born to immature parents. I rather be ready mentally and financially before I bring forth a baby into this world becase that way it be less drama and the baby will have a decent life instead of meaningless yelling, having to grow up without both parents who spend time with them, and knowing that is alright to have a child when they are still immature themselves. Ask yourself, would you want your baby to have a baby of their own just like you? If not then stop treating it like it's nothing! It's wrong to have babies when you are not mature enough!
I understand in certain sitations such as rape that it is alright. But that is only because the person was forcefully put into that situation. Unlike you who chose to make a stupid act putting yourself in that situation. Well I could go on and on about how stupid people like that are but then this blog will get too long. the point is it's stupid to get pregnant when you chose not to use a condom when you aren't ready for a child. It's stupid to complain about a hard life when you chose to have that life. It's stupid to "love" someone after dating them a week before you get married or even pregnant. It's stupid to complain about your "love" when you refuse to do anything about their actions. If you don't want to be called stupid then stop doing stupid acts. It's that simple.
Oh and don't say "you have no right to judge me! You dont' know the whole story!" Uh you post it all online so I have every right to say my opinion since you gave me the information. Don't like being judged? Then don't post it online where everyone can see it. Private matters should stay private. Also unlike you I don't make stupid acts. I've been with my partner for going on three years now and we are engaged to only be married when we both have jobs that will support us. We are going to wait least a year after marriage before thinking about kids so we can be ready. This is called planning which you didnt' do. We waited a year before getting engaged and we actually work out our problems if we complain. So I have every right to judge since you are the one complaining about a life that you chose to have while posting online for everyone to see! So once again you are an idiot. Immature isn't of age, it's the level of stupidity.
Friday, June 22, 2012
What is True Love?
True love, a feeling everyone craves and searches forever to find. But what is it? What relationship has it? Anyone can claim to have it but only half of those truly do. It's not that hard to find but at the same time it's the hardest to obtain. Do you know why? Because those that quickly claims they have it truly don't because they don't work for it so they lose whatever "love" they did have. Those that work to maintian the relationship will achieve it.
One trait of true love is someone who makes you happy. You know that giggly feeling inside you when you see them, or how they go out of their way just to see you smile. But this trait is one of the most that people claim they have found the "one" because they say the person makes them happy. How many times have you heard someone say "He/she makes me happy, he/she's the one!" after this person has dated this so-called "one" only a day or two? Anyone can make you happy when you just start dating, no matter how long you known them before the dating part, but what makes it true is this person has no hidden motive and only wants to see your smile. Also this person will continue to make you happy through out their life. But once the arguments start people tend to break-up because they're "no longer happy". News flash, arguments will happen and there is no escape from it which requires both sides to compromise and forgive. Happiness isn't all about smiles but knowing this person is in your life making you feel that warm feeling inside of you. That is happiness, that warm feeling that never leaves despite the arguments. Too many give up because they think it's all about the smiles so they just leave without even trying. Instead of leaving they should try compromising and communicating (which are triats of a stable relationship)
Loyalty is a major trait of true love, along with respect and honesty. Actually these three things are important in life in general. If you aren't any of these to your lover than you probably don't have true love. Loyalty keeps you two focused upon each other, and no one can intervene because your bond is too strong to break. No straying eyes if it's true, because you are the only one they want to see and no other person will ever be good enough to be you. No flirting, no kissing, nor "harmless fun" with the another because that is cheating and you never cheat if it's true love. Respect plays a part because you two see each other as equals and would never do anything to make the other feel lesser than they are. You two would never do anything to harm each other, even mentally. Honesty, well love can't be built on lies right? So don't lie.
Love is the most important cause without it, then true love won't exist ever. Anyone can claim they love you, but who truly means it? And how is it the true kind? Well first off you can't claim it's "true love' if you only dated them two days because it doesn't give anyone enough time to prove that love. Words are just words if there is no action to make them correct. For instance, would someone who says they love you would go off cheating? Doesn't sound like love to me. As i sated before, true lovers don't cheat. That's the problem with many people, they hear that phrase and automatically think they have found true love because the person says they "love" them. No, it's not true love unless the other person's actions says so as well. If a person shows their love by never cheating, staying by your side, making you happy, showing their affection towards you, staying honest, and keeps to their word then it could be true love. Anything else won't make it. Also if you don't know if you love them, then you don't love them. When you love someone you never deny it, cause if you do then it's not love.
It just really irks me and even makes me a bit mad seeing people begin to date someone and automatically claim they found "the one" and you know it's not true, because in the past they claimed the same thing where the relationship failed. Also don't say "well i was just lying to myself that i was in love", No you was not "lying" to yourself, either you mistakenly thought you was or you knew you wasn't. No offense but saying that phrase makes you sould like someone who can't own up to their mistake. Just say you was wrong, how hard is that? You just thought you was. Saying you lied to yourself makes you sould like a liar. Also when you claim to have found the "one" after hopping from person to person is not even love, it's stupidty and causes drama that way. You can't love all those people and if you are so quickly to move on after a "love" then it was never love to begin with. Heartbreaks don't heal that quickly. Ignorant people as these will never find true love because they lack the many traits. Also saying "I'm not interested in anybody, i just want someone to love and someone that cares enough to stay by myside if they offer that, I'll let them take as long as they need" is a very stupid thing to do because you end up dating anyone who claims they love you and you will never find the true one because you won't work for it and you set yourself up for harm.
So next time you or someone you know says they found the "one" then check if they have those traits cause that's the best way to see if it's true love. If not, well that's their choice and you can't stop them from dating (that's wrong). I do have to admit I do wish to wack some people in the back of the head for being stupid because I so tire of hearing it's "the one" or "it's true love!" when in fact it's not. You can't be true without love, loyalty, honesty, respect, happiness of both, and compromise. cause anything else is false. Don't ask me "how would you know?" either because I do know because I been with my love for 2 years now and we compromise, love each other, loyal, respect and are honest. We would do anything to make the other happy. We love each other so it's true love. If you have those traits and maintain your relationship then it true. Love is only easy as much effort you put into it.
One trait of true love is someone who makes you happy. You know that giggly feeling inside you when you see them, or how they go out of their way just to see you smile. But this trait is one of the most that people claim they have found the "one" because they say the person makes them happy. How many times have you heard someone say "He/she makes me happy, he/she's the one!" after this person has dated this so-called "one" only a day or two? Anyone can make you happy when you just start dating, no matter how long you known them before the dating part, but what makes it true is this person has no hidden motive and only wants to see your smile. Also this person will continue to make you happy through out their life. But once the arguments start people tend to break-up because they're "no longer happy". News flash, arguments will happen and there is no escape from it which requires both sides to compromise and forgive. Happiness isn't all about smiles but knowing this person is in your life making you feel that warm feeling inside of you. That is happiness, that warm feeling that never leaves despite the arguments. Too many give up because they think it's all about the smiles so they just leave without even trying. Instead of leaving they should try compromising and communicating (which are triats of a stable relationship)
Loyalty is a major trait of true love, along with respect and honesty. Actually these three things are important in life in general. If you aren't any of these to your lover than you probably don't have true love. Loyalty keeps you two focused upon each other, and no one can intervene because your bond is too strong to break. No straying eyes if it's true, because you are the only one they want to see and no other person will ever be good enough to be you. No flirting, no kissing, nor "harmless fun" with the another because that is cheating and you never cheat if it's true love. Respect plays a part because you two see each other as equals and would never do anything to make the other feel lesser than they are. You two would never do anything to harm each other, even mentally. Honesty, well love can't be built on lies right? So don't lie.
Love is the most important cause without it, then true love won't exist ever. Anyone can claim they love you, but who truly means it? And how is it the true kind? Well first off you can't claim it's "true love' if you only dated them two days because it doesn't give anyone enough time to prove that love. Words are just words if there is no action to make them correct. For instance, would someone who says they love you would go off cheating? Doesn't sound like love to me. As i sated before, true lovers don't cheat. That's the problem with many people, they hear that phrase and automatically think they have found true love because the person says they "love" them. No, it's not true love unless the other person's actions says so as well. If a person shows their love by never cheating, staying by your side, making you happy, showing their affection towards you, staying honest, and keeps to their word then it could be true love. Anything else won't make it. Also if you don't know if you love them, then you don't love them. When you love someone you never deny it, cause if you do then it's not love.
It just really irks me and even makes me a bit mad seeing people begin to date someone and automatically claim they found "the one" and you know it's not true, because in the past they claimed the same thing where the relationship failed. Also don't say "well i was just lying to myself that i was in love", No you was not "lying" to yourself, either you mistakenly thought you was or you knew you wasn't. No offense but saying that phrase makes you sould like someone who can't own up to their mistake. Just say you was wrong, how hard is that? You just thought you was. Saying you lied to yourself makes you sould like a liar. Also when you claim to have found the "one" after hopping from person to person is not even love, it's stupidty and causes drama that way. You can't love all those people and if you are so quickly to move on after a "love" then it was never love to begin with. Heartbreaks don't heal that quickly. Ignorant people as these will never find true love because they lack the many traits. Also saying "I'm not interested in anybody, i just want someone to love and someone that cares enough to stay by myside if they offer that, I'll let them take as long as they need" is a very stupid thing to do because you end up dating anyone who claims they love you and you will never find the true one because you won't work for it and you set yourself up for harm.
So next time you or someone you know says they found the "one" then check if they have those traits cause that's the best way to see if it's true love. If not, well that's their choice and you can't stop them from dating (that's wrong). I do have to admit I do wish to wack some people in the back of the head for being stupid because I so tire of hearing it's "the one" or "it's true love!" when in fact it's not. You can't be true without love, loyalty, honesty, respect, happiness of both, and compromise. cause anything else is false. Don't ask me "how would you know?" either because I do know because I been with my love for 2 years now and we compromise, love each other, loyal, respect and are honest. We would do anything to make the other happy. We love each other so it's true love. If you have those traits and maintain your relationship then it true. Love is only easy as much effort you put into it.
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Am I at fault as I feel?
I know lately I been posting a lot about my family and my problems, and this post will be no different. Writing helps me a lot, whether it's talking to my friends, writing in my stories, poems, my journal or even posting in this blog. It helps so much to relieve the emotions inside of me. This probably will be a long entry cause my mind is confused and lots of emotions is inside. For those who dislike what I talk about, then don't read it. I am who I am and don't want others telling me to change. This is my life, i want to live it my way.
First off, I'm a pessimstic being that does try thinking positive, but my mind is dark and negative so when i"m sad many thoughts enter in my mind and I can't stop them. I probably make things out to be worse than they really are, but in my mind it feels worse. I don't know why am what I am and it's hard to explain for others to understand. Many of my close friends don't like my parents due to what I told them and I do defend them because they are my parents and I feel responsible. Family comes first was the way I was raised.
How many people are on great terms with their parents? Meaning they don't fight, always loving with no negativity whatsoever? Very few can say that they always get along with their parents without complaining. I was once like that, I thought my life was near perfect but inside I always wanted to be free like my friends who wasn't overprotected. I was always over-protected and dependant on my parents for everything. I wanted to be free so i locked all my negative feelings away where i never told anyone how I feel. I fear judgement and being lectured (i hate being lectured) so i never voiced how i truly felt.
As you know in the previous posts, lately me and my dad has been fighting a lot. Always over small things. Well today he had another bad day at work (he loathes his job and his coworkers who are like bullies) where he almost hit the "end of his rope" with the stress. 80% of that stress is his job and 20% of it is me, he told me this. I don't do all my chores as I'm supposed to do when asked, I don't practice driving as i should, I don't take part in the family time, and I am not talkative as I should be. Those are few of what stresses him out. I'm not responsible enough as I should be. I know I slack off sometimes where I fall in a rut with no motivation, but what person doesn't? I don't complelty stop doing chores, I still do some and I do them well, but it's not enough to him, I have to do what needs to be done. Like once a day either sweep, mop, vaccuum, clean small bathroom, dishes, make the coffee, and feed the cats. Every week. I lose motivation because every week I have to do these and it's all the same and I'm the one doing them. I have no help cause I'm home alone and an only child. Every summer it's like this for me. My dad made it clear to me that these need to be done cause it's my responsibility.
Next, is my liscence. He says there is no time limit when I have to have it. But I do need it, this is me saying that cause I can't rely on my parents to damn take me everywhere and it annoys me when they decline something. My problem is I'm nervous of driving. I'm good driver, yes but other drivers scare me cause many drive wrecklessly and I'm terrifed I'm going to get in a wreck. With that fear has made me dislike driving. I can't overcome fears as easily as others, it's hard to push through that barrior. That's why I haven't been out practicing.
How many times must I say I'm a quiet person? Some days I'm talkative and others i'm not because I don't know what to say. I'm sorry if I seem selfish for not communicating as others like but it's who I am. Sometimes I am short with people by giving simple answers, but I just don't know what to say. Yes, I'm on the interent or my phone a lot, but that's because I'm talking with my friends who I never get to see. I live with my parents so I see them least 24/7 for 22 years now. Sometimes you just dont want to constantly be in family time with them. I'm sorry if that sounds selfish but who doesn't not want to get away from their parents? Also I don't have control over my emotions, so I tend to cry when upset. My mom said that's aggrivating because she wants to have a serious conversation with me and get feedback. I can't help it, i fucking can't. I try, I really do try to stay calm and stop the tears, but I fail when the conversation continues on and on. I "shut down" because I'm trying to absorb what is being said and control myself. I truly don't know what to say because what i do want to say I fear it will piss them off. They keep telling me tell them everything even if it's bad, but I can't pull myself to do that. Because in my mind I'm scared what I say will make them mad and be lectured or told i'm selfish. They say they treat me as an adult and my opinion matters, but is it worth the tenstion? You don't want to know my true thoughts because you will be disappointed.
What truly had me upset and scared is my dad is on the burdge of quiting his job. His job is working at a collage that I go to, so I get free tuition and a ride (I ride with him up and back). This is a private school so the tuition is expansive and if he quits that will put me in a very bad spot. I'm jobless, no liscence, and i live with my parents... makes me feel like a failure since i'm 20% of someone's stress. He works with jerks who hate him just to hate him and their lazy so their tasks get handed to him. The only reason he works there is because of me, and he has told me this lots of times. Whenever he complains about his job, he always tells me why he's there; for me. it makes me feel guitly but what hurt today is when he said he thinks I don't appriciate it and says it's not worth the stress. I do appriciate it! I may not voice it, but I do cause the collage is the only damn thing working for me since I lack a job. He says he's going to try find an alternative, another job at hte collage but it's a very slim chance. This is why I desperatly need to obtain my liscence, and try my hardest to get scholarships or grants so i can pay that tuition, and gas money to go. This semester (Fall 2012) might be my last collage experiance if nothing is done cause he swears he's going to quit if I don't meet him half way.
I have to be more responsible and try to control my emotions where i"m not sad. I need to get my liscence and maybe a job cause i don't want to fucking be stuck here in this damn house. And I'm fucking tired of him telling me how bad my life will be saying "there's a whole world out there beyond that computer screen" or comparing me people I don't like. I stay online because it's the only place I feel free and be able to talk to my friends cause I live far away from them. And it's the only thing connecting me to my fiance since we don't get to see each other hardly. I was told all this today... like a bomb going off in my mind spreading so many fears and negative thoughts makign me feel like a failure and like it's all my fault. He did say that I always have a home here no matter what, but i dont' want to be here honeslty. Since i was a teenager, i want to be free. I'm that selfish? Am I? I'm so confused, scared and near tears again. I hate my weaknesses and their not bad people but they just don't understand me. I don't tell them anything because it's hard for me to open up and their my parents, who doesn't have a hard time opening up to theirs?
I'm not a failure, am i? Am I to blame? my parents say It's not all my fault but dad keeps reminding me I need to meet him halfway and 20% of stress is due to me. He wants me to be more responsible and independat so everything he does is for me... he only works at a job he hates is because of me... he makes me feel at fault and guilty sometimes without meaning to. He dont think about his words and his tone so his attitude made me beleive i'm at fault... if the only reason he works at that damn place is because of me, so wouldnt' that make it my fault?
First off, I'm a pessimstic being that does try thinking positive, but my mind is dark and negative so when i"m sad many thoughts enter in my mind and I can't stop them. I probably make things out to be worse than they really are, but in my mind it feels worse. I don't know why am what I am and it's hard to explain for others to understand. Many of my close friends don't like my parents due to what I told them and I do defend them because they are my parents and I feel responsible. Family comes first was the way I was raised.
How many people are on great terms with their parents? Meaning they don't fight, always loving with no negativity whatsoever? Very few can say that they always get along with their parents without complaining. I was once like that, I thought my life was near perfect but inside I always wanted to be free like my friends who wasn't overprotected. I was always over-protected and dependant on my parents for everything. I wanted to be free so i locked all my negative feelings away where i never told anyone how I feel. I fear judgement and being lectured (i hate being lectured) so i never voiced how i truly felt.
As you know in the previous posts, lately me and my dad has been fighting a lot. Always over small things. Well today he had another bad day at work (he loathes his job and his coworkers who are like bullies) where he almost hit the "end of his rope" with the stress. 80% of that stress is his job and 20% of it is me, he told me this. I don't do all my chores as I'm supposed to do when asked, I don't practice driving as i should, I don't take part in the family time, and I am not talkative as I should be. Those are few of what stresses him out. I'm not responsible enough as I should be. I know I slack off sometimes where I fall in a rut with no motivation, but what person doesn't? I don't complelty stop doing chores, I still do some and I do them well, but it's not enough to him, I have to do what needs to be done. Like once a day either sweep, mop, vaccuum, clean small bathroom, dishes, make the coffee, and feed the cats. Every week. I lose motivation because every week I have to do these and it's all the same and I'm the one doing them. I have no help cause I'm home alone and an only child. Every summer it's like this for me. My dad made it clear to me that these need to be done cause it's my responsibility.
Next, is my liscence. He says there is no time limit when I have to have it. But I do need it, this is me saying that cause I can't rely on my parents to damn take me everywhere and it annoys me when they decline something. My problem is I'm nervous of driving. I'm good driver, yes but other drivers scare me cause many drive wrecklessly and I'm terrifed I'm going to get in a wreck. With that fear has made me dislike driving. I can't overcome fears as easily as others, it's hard to push through that barrior. That's why I haven't been out practicing.
How many times must I say I'm a quiet person? Some days I'm talkative and others i'm not because I don't know what to say. I'm sorry if I seem selfish for not communicating as others like but it's who I am. Sometimes I am short with people by giving simple answers, but I just don't know what to say. Yes, I'm on the interent or my phone a lot, but that's because I'm talking with my friends who I never get to see. I live with my parents so I see them least 24/7 for 22 years now. Sometimes you just dont want to constantly be in family time with them. I'm sorry if that sounds selfish but who doesn't not want to get away from their parents? Also I don't have control over my emotions, so I tend to cry when upset. My mom said that's aggrivating because she wants to have a serious conversation with me and get feedback. I can't help it, i fucking can't. I try, I really do try to stay calm and stop the tears, but I fail when the conversation continues on and on. I "shut down" because I'm trying to absorb what is being said and control myself. I truly don't know what to say because what i do want to say I fear it will piss them off. They keep telling me tell them everything even if it's bad, but I can't pull myself to do that. Because in my mind I'm scared what I say will make them mad and be lectured or told i'm selfish. They say they treat me as an adult and my opinion matters, but is it worth the tenstion? You don't want to know my true thoughts because you will be disappointed.
What truly had me upset and scared is my dad is on the burdge of quiting his job. His job is working at a collage that I go to, so I get free tuition and a ride (I ride with him up and back). This is a private school so the tuition is expansive and if he quits that will put me in a very bad spot. I'm jobless, no liscence, and i live with my parents... makes me feel like a failure since i'm 20% of someone's stress. He works with jerks who hate him just to hate him and their lazy so their tasks get handed to him. The only reason he works there is because of me, and he has told me this lots of times. Whenever he complains about his job, he always tells me why he's there; for me. it makes me feel guitly but what hurt today is when he said he thinks I don't appriciate it and says it's not worth the stress. I do appriciate it! I may not voice it, but I do cause the collage is the only damn thing working for me since I lack a job. He says he's going to try find an alternative, another job at hte collage but it's a very slim chance. This is why I desperatly need to obtain my liscence, and try my hardest to get scholarships or grants so i can pay that tuition, and gas money to go. This semester (Fall 2012) might be my last collage experiance if nothing is done cause he swears he's going to quit if I don't meet him half way.
I have to be more responsible and try to control my emotions where i"m not sad. I need to get my liscence and maybe a job cause i don't want to fucking be stuck here in this damn house. And I'm fucking tired of him telling me how bad my life will be saying "there's a whole world out there beyond that computer screen" or comparing me people I don't like. I stay online because it's the only place I feel free and be able to talk to my friends cause I live far away from them. And it's the only thing connecting me to my fiance since we don't get to see each other hardly. I was told all this today... like a bomb going off in my mind spreading so many fears and negative thoughts makign me feel like a failure and like it's all my fault. He did say that I always have a home here no matter what, but i dont' want to be here honeslty. Since i was a teenager, i want to be free. I'm that selfish? Am I? I'm so confused, scared and near tears again. I hate my weaknesses and their not bad people but they just don't understand me. I don't tell them anything because it's hard for me to open up and their my parents, who doesn't have a hard time opening up to theirs?
I'm not a failure, am i? Am I to blame? my parents say It's not all my fault but dad keeps reminding me I need to meet him halfway and 20% of stress is due to me. He wants me to be more responsible and independat so everything he does is for me... he only works at a job he hates is because of me... he makes me feel at fault and guilty sometimes without meaning to. He dont think about his words and his tone so his attitude made me beleive i'm at fault... if the only reason he works at that damn place is because of me, so wouldnt' that make it my fault?
Saturday, May 19, 2012
50 Things that annoy me
Got bored and realized I get annoyed easily with certain things or people, so out of annoyance and boredom here is 50 things that do annoy me. They are not listed in order and I will give reasons why they annoy me. Enjoy or learn new things about me =)
- Technology/electronics that doesn't work right. Such as locking up, going slow, or just having trouble with the object. It's frustrating and annoys me because you want to do something but you can't cause the object isnt' working correctly.
- Having someone ask more than 3 times if I'm alright or if there is anything wrong. If I have answered "no" or "i'm alright' to the same question more than three times, it annoys me because I clearly either is alright or I dont' want to talk about it to you. If there is something wrong and I dont' tell you, then let it go cause pressuring me just annoys me. In time I will tell you when I'm ready to talk about whatever is bothering me, if there is something bothering me.
- Assuming something is wrong because i'm not talkative enough or I'm quiet. I am reserved and an introvert, so basically I'm always quiet! Yes some days I'm more talkative than others, but on other days I'm just quiett. So please don't assume something is wrong. I could just have nothing to say. And please don't ever say "you are never quiet" cause clearly you do NOT know me if you say this.
- Telling me what to do, what to think or how to feel. You are not me, so don't ever tell me how I should feel or run my life. I am my own person and this is my life so please don't be the boss of me. I don't mind advice, but there's a difference in telling me something and ordering me around. And it truly annoys me when someone tells me how i should feel.
- Claiming you know me better than I know myself. You are not me, you do not feel what i feel, you do not think what i think, nor do you live my life. So don't ever claim you know me better than I do. You might know some things about me, but not 100%.
- Not replying back to me. I understand sometimes people get busy but if I send you a message and you don't reply until few days later, that is just rude. Now I understand if you didn't get the message until those days later, but if you got it when I sent it then it makes me feel you are ignoring me and i hate being ignored. It's polite to respond back, if you are busy say you are busy and I'll leave you alone.
- Being around loud noises. I have sensitive hearing and I'm a tense person so when I'm around loud noises for awhile it will annoy me. Noises such as barking dogs, loud people, or loud tv/radio. It hurts my ears and makes me tense.
- Over teasing me. I don't mind some teasing, it's a laugh and makes people happy, but sometimes you can over tease until I get mad. After awhile it gets old and some things I don't like being teased over, such as my body or my height. Yes, i know i"m shorter than most and I'll accept some jokes but some people take it too far cause they do it too much. i can't help my height, nor what I look like, so please don't tease me too much or I will get mad.
- Getting me mad cause it looks "cute". It might look cute to you but for me I'm pissed off and being mad isnt' a good feeling. What if someone laughed when you got angry? How would it feel?
- Not listening to my advice when you asked for it. This really does make me annoyed cause if you come to me for advice or help, then it's rude to dismiss it cause you are wasting my time and yours. Why come to me when you aren't going to listen to me? It's rude.
- Those that keep messing up and comes to me for "help". I don't mind helping when I'm able and will do the best I can, but if you keep coming to me for the same problem even after I gave you help then there isn't anything i can do. Not to sound mean but it's your fault in the first place for getting into that situation, and your fault again for not listening to me in the first place. So again it's a waste of time and rude. I got my own problems too you know, I can't solve everything.
- People who are too negative or too positive. Too negative people drain the life out of you, they see the bad in anything, they don't listen to reason and they will bring you to their level of depression. Too positive people are just plain annoying. Everything is sunny and nothing could ever go wrong. It's good to be positive but sometimes you need to cry or complain, it's healthy.
- Making a competition out of everything! I get annoyed when I'm talking someone and they always got to one-up you on whatever you are talking about. Like you are complaining about your life, and this person says "well least you have blah blah where I have to put up with blah blah" or if you are proud of something and the person talks about their success. It's always about them winning in what ever the conversation is. It's annoying as hell and rude cause they put the focus on them.
- Judging on labels. I really can not stand when people judge someone based under whatever catagory the person is under. Rather it be the high school stereotypes (Jock, prep, goth, etc.), relegion (christian, atheist, jewish, etc.), Political (Democrat, republican, independant, etc.), or gender (male and female). You are judging a whole catagory of people based on one person in that catagory that did you wrong. You should judge on personality not what label they are. I see it all the time, people insulting someone just because they are a different label. It's rude and stupid.
- Assuming or jumping to conclusions based on little facts. self-explanatory. You will make a bigger mess assuming than finding out the facts yourself. Don't assume things when you aren't totally sure.
- Not respecting my opinions. People have differnet opinions, belief's, and views but it gives you no right to argue with them just because they are different. You can disagree with me but don't ever insult me or say that I am "wrong" when it's based on opinions. It's rude and dis-respectful. I respect all differences, so respect mine.
- don't keep insulting something i enjoy. I understand you don't like it, but understand that I do and it's rude to continue to insult something in front of me. Agree to disagree is my motto. You don't like it but I do. I don't insult the things you like so it's respectful for you to not insult what I like.
- Talking/commenting all through a movie. This is minor but still annoys me. Yes, it's alright to comment once in awhile but not through the whole thing. Some people are trying to watch it and you're talking is interrupting them. If you must talk, talk soflty where i can't hear you. Also don't tell the ending of a movie to those who hasn't seen it, it's a spoiler and annoying. If you know who-did-it then keep it to yourself and enjoy the movie. You can guess who did it if you do not know.
- Not getting my privacy. Sometimes I just want my privacy and it annoys me when others won't give it to me. Also, at night is usually when i have privacy to look at private things, but since the computer is in the living room I don't get that privacy cause people are in the room. I know that sounds selfish but the night time is the only time I have for certain privacy and it annoys me when I can't have that late at night because someone falls asleep on the couch instead of going to bed. They refuse to go to bed despite them sleeping. If I had interent in my room, this wouldn't annoy me but it falls under the privacy issue.
- Getting up early in the morning when I wish to continue sleeping. I am a nightowl and I like to sleep in, so forgive me for being grumpy when I have to get up early. I am not a morning person.
- Informing me about every single thing about something I don't care for. I know you're happy with something but please don't inform me about every single detail about it. I will listen to you but afterwhile of continue talking about it, it gets old and I start getting annoyed. Also this goes for other people who has to inform me about thier lives either their wives "pregnancy symptoms" or how great their life is. That's nice, i'm glad for you but I sorta don't care since I have my own life i'm focused on. I'm talking about those people who inform you every chance they get.
- If I'm already mad at someone, hugging it all better doesn't work. when I'm mad, I can't just flip a switch turning off that anger or frustration, so it annoys me when people get over things so fast and expect me to do the same. I'm an emotional person, I can't magically get over something just because you decide it's over. Give me time to cool off in my own pace. I will calm down but don't assume a hug will magically make it disappear. I do like hugs, but they don't make my anger go away quickly.
- Arragant, prideful and obnoxious people. Self-explanatory. Yes you may be better at something than others but bragging about it and insutling people is rude and annoying. This also falls under the people who can do no wrong who are also annoying.
- Pointing out my mistakes. I don't mind when people correct me but it gets annoying sometimes when it's small details. I know I make mistakes, but i don't need them always pointed out to me. I dont point out your mistakes, so dont' always point out mine. Those "grammar-nazis" are like that and they annoy me greatly. Yes, grammar and spelling is important but it's not the end of the world if you find a mistake, let it go.No one will ever be perfect.
- Dropping or knocking over things. I'm not a graceful person, I can be clumsy at times but it annoys me when I accidently bump into things and knock it over cause most times it happens all through aday. You know those days when nothing goes right?
- Nosey people who have to know everything. Self-explanatory.
- Losing or dying multiple times in a game. It gets frustrating when you lose a battle over and over, getting no progress done.
- Hearing the same thing over and over. Either it be a noise or a phrase. It gets old after awhile and then it starts getting annoying.
- Lecturing me. I don't like being lectured cause it's my life and it gives me the impression you are telling me what to do and how to live it.
- Repeating myself more than twice. I understand people don't hear things the first time so I will gladly say it again, but I start getting annoyed if I must keep repating myself cause it makes me feel like my voice doesn't matter or it's a waste of my time. After the 3rd time I won't repeat myself cause by then I'm annoyed.
- Interrupting me when I'm in the middle of something I find important with something small.
- Insulting people. I don't like seeing others insult someone else, it's mean. This also the reason why I hate bullies.
- Being "smart" with me such as smarty remarks or sarcasm. I am a nice polite person, so I would like you to be too and being sarcastic or a smarty remark isn't that nice and it will annoy me.
- Bragging or flaunting things in front of me. That's nice you have things, or successful but it's bit rude to keep bragging about it.
- Lying to me. Just don't do it. Also don't keep things from me either. I hate being kept in the dark on situations, my mind is over-active with a vivid imagination and a pessimist, so don't keep me in the dark.
- Clingy people. I dont like it when people cling to me all the time. Give me some space and let me breath. I have a life you know, i can't always be showing up at a place or with someone.
- Alarms that don't stay off or even scanners that keep going off.
- Having to do many chores. I don't like cleaning but I will do it, but please don't overload me. I only have so much time to do things.
- Rushing me. Don't rush me, I am going the fast as I can and I see the time, so rushing me gets nowhere accept to annoyance.
- Arriving late or too early. I don't like arriving late to anything, nor too early. I wish to be just on time. Too early means I will have to wait hours for whatever it is to start.
- When people say something like "I can't believe you still blah blah" or "people still do/have that?" when directed at something I have or do. It's bit rude cause not everyone can be like you so don't sound so shocked if someone has something like dial-up.
- When I can't get something opened, such as a jar, package, etc.
- When people keep forgetting things that I tell them more than once. I expect you to remember if I already told you twice, and it makes me think whatever i said isn't important since you can't remember after two times being told.
- Losing things and can't find them. I don't like losing things.
- Being forced to do soemthing I don't want to do
- Having someone say they know how I feel because they were "young once". Being young doesn't make you know something, everyong is young but everyone faces different situations. Unless you are going through what I'm going through, you do not know how I feel.
- People who tell you you have no right to complain. Sometimes you have to complain to relieve the frustration building up and yes other people have it worse, but that gives no one the right to tell you what to do. It's also freedom of speech that allows someone to speak if they wish. Though I don't complain all the time, but it annoys me when I hear someone say that.
- People who always complain to me. It's your right to complain, but why complain to me? I can't solve your problems and I have my own complaints. I'll listen but understand I do get annoyed if you complain about the same thing more than a day.
- Obessesion. People who get obsessed and talk about that obsession to me.
- People who cannot carry a conversation. If you strike up a conversation, then you must help carry that conversation, dont' just stop talking. it's rude and annoys me cause I'm the one doing all the talking. Also using "lol" "ok" or "k" is a conversation killer, and is annoying when you always use them. You could at least ask me how I am or my day, what i'm thinking, what i'm up to or something. Don't leave me trying to make the convo work when it was you who began it. I will give up afterawhile.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
"Do You Call my Name?"
Here's a song my fiance' showed me that describes my situation with my parents. Lately I've been finding many songs I can relate with in different ways, and since I'm "disallowed" to rant on Facebook about them, I rant here. This is my blog and I will do as I please. About this song, to me it reminds me of why I won't rebel against my parents despite everyone telling me to stand up. I can't stand up cause I have no leverage and no where to go. This is their house, I use thier money to get into college (dad works there to get me free tuiton and he damn hates his job), and I don't have my liscence yet (which is my fault). It's only me against them in this house and parents are 'nine out of ten times always right" said my dad once. I find ways to compromise, or buckle under. And once again pretending to be someone I'm not to keep the damn peace and make them happy.
Like today for instance, I was in a irratated mood (just one of those days) and wasn't talkative. Dad got pissed off at me for being short with him when he talked to me and accused me of not being talkative enough. Not hte first time we had this argument, third time to be exact. Then when mom gets home he drags her into it and sends me into my room so they can "talk". Which he was damn complaining about me and how he fucking hates his job. Anybody else have parents that complain about them? Feels digrading, doesn't it? Then later he talks to me saying how it's "his fault more than mine" and how he hates his job and he won't complain to me about it ever again if I stop complaining myself (mostly about how sucky of a computer we have). Oh and again I'm threatened not to post anything on facebook about him or my phone gets taken away. He wants me to be more talkative since he needs me to be cause i'm "slipping away" from him. So once again I'm damn pretending to be this happy little perfect obediant daughter of theirs who never complains but is always talkative with smile and involved in "family time'. Sometimes I really wish I was invisible so I can damn disappear... I really do feel alone sometimes but I'm very thankful for my friends letting me lean on them and rant cause one day I truly fear I'll damn break... which I play over and over in my mind of what could happen, none of the scenarios look good for me. Enjoy the song lyrics.
Do You Call my Name? - Ra
Like today for instance, I was in a irratated mood (just one of those days) and wasn't talkative. Dad got pissed off at me for being short with him when he talked to me and accused me of not being talkative enough. Not hte first time we had this argument, third time to be exact. Then when mom gets home he drags her into it and sends me into my room so they can "talk". Which he was damn complaining about me and how he fucking hates his job. Anybody else have parents that complain about them? Feels digrading, doesn't it? Then later he talks to me saying how it's "his fault more than mine" and how he hates his job and he won't complain to me about it ever again if I stop complaining myself (mostly about how sucky of a computer we have). Oh and again I'm threatened not to post anything on facebook about him or my phone gets taken away. He wants me to be more talkative since he needs me to be cause i'm "slipping away" from him. So once again I'm damn pretending to be this happy little perfect obediant daughter of theirs who never complains but is always talkative with smile and involved in "family time'. Sometimes I really wish I was invisible so I can damn disappear... I really do feel alone sometimes but I'm very thankful for my friends letting me lean on them and rant cause one day I truly fear I'll damn break... which I play over and over in my mind of what could happen, none of the scenarios look good for me. Enjoy the song lyrics.
Do You Call my Name? - Ra
Some people seem to think they always know what's best for you
Their little minds try to create a world to keep you still
The bolt is thrown, the cage is locked
You saw this, don't you lie
At first you cry and then you hate those people stole your will...
Do as you are told and maybe then we'll let you out
You might be dead and cold, you might be full of doubt
Don't try to escape cuz you don't have nowhere to go
If nothing is your fate, there's no scenario
No nothing
Do you call my name
Do you stain my brain
My eyes are blurry and I can't see you anymore
Do you call my name
Do you breed my pain
My heart is bloody and I can't take it anymore
So you just sit there, stuck, afraid to risk reality
Afraid to cause yourself more pain, to face insanity
But nothing ventured, nothing gained
You see... your fear's your cage
You beg for help but you're alone, stuck in a helpless rage
Do as you are told and maybe then we'll let you out
You might be dead and cold, you might be full of doubt
Don't try to escape cuz you don't have nowhere to go
If nothing is your fate... there's no scenario
(it's me.... I see, please... let me out I'm petrified)
Do as you are told and maybe then we'll let you out
You might be dead and cold, you might be full of doubt
Don't try to escape cuz you don't have nowhere to go
If nothing is your fate... there's no scenario
(C'mon)
Do you call my name
Do you stain my brain
My eyes are blurry and I can't see you anymore
Do you call my name
Do you breed my pain
My heart is bloody and I can't take it anymore
Their little minds try to create a world to keep you still
The bolt is thrown, the cage is locked
You saw this, don't you lie
At first you cry and then you hate those people stole your will...
Do as you are told and maybe then we'll let you out
You might be dead and cold, you might be full of doubt
Don't try to escape cuz you don't have nowhere to go
If nothing is your fate, there's no scenario
No nothing
Do you call my name
Do you stain my brain
My eyes are blurry and I can't see you anymore
Do you call my name
Do you breed my pain
My heart is bloody and I can't take it anymore
So you just sit there, stuck, afraid to risk reality
Afraid to cause yourself more pain, to face insanity
But nothing ventured, nothing gained
You see... your fear's your cage
You beg for help but you're alone, stuck in a helpless rage
Do as you are told and maybe then we'll let you out
You might be dead and cold, you might be full of doubt
Don't try to escape cuz you don't have nowhere to go
If nothing is your fate... there's no scenario
(it's me.... I see, please... let me out I'm petrified)
Do as you are told and maybe then we'll let you out
You might be dead and cold, you might be full of doubt
Don't try to escape cuz you don't have nowhere to go
If nothing is your fate... there's no scenario
(C'mon)
Do you call my name
Do you stain my brain
My eyes are blurry and I can't see you anymore
Do you call my name
Do you breed my pain
My heart is bloody and I can't take it anymore
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
You can't Learn when the Teacher can't Teach
We all had those teachers that bring up the question "Why are you even teaching?" and still come up with no good answer. You know the types, the ones we can't stand or think of unfairly? Some are strict, mean/attitude, or just not good at teaching you. Well I had a variety of teachers like this and even though I like the personality of few teachers, their teaching skills need improvement.
This particular rant is about those teachers not good at teaching or they don't see that they left a couple of their students behind in the dust when teaching the other students. Since I been in college (In a Sophmore) I've had least two teachers like this. One was last year where she piled assignments on us and told us to do them, she breifly went through a tutorial of the new lesson for that day and handed out directions for us then let us loose on the work. That's fine but my complaint with her is she gave out too much assingments with short deadlines where some of the work couldn't be completed unless you had the program at home (it was a computer class) but I did not. So I earned a C in that class (a decent grade but low due to the assignments I had no time to complete). Though as bad as that sounds, what's worse is all her students expect for very few actually complted all the assingments, the rest, like me, hadn't the time. Was this poor teaching skills or she just over-estimated our abilities? But I passed the class so my complaints are low on this teacher since I am pleased I wasn't left behind the other students.
This semester (2012) I have another teacher who sadly left me behind and set the bar way too high for me where I feel my best isn't good enough. It's a Art History class (something on Reinassance) where the teacher didn't teach me where I could learn what I need to learn to pass the class. He's the type to make you read on your own and listen while he lectured in class about things you should already know, but for those who first time taking this specfic type of class has no clue what he's talking about. He is a nice teacher personality wise, but his teaching is strict and precise. He wants you do what exactly the directions say without any lee-way, such as "Discuss using the proper art vocabulary of how this painting works in this time period" or "compare and contrast using proper art vocabulary these specific artists" and he will count off if you do not exactly do that. He assumes you will know this by reading the book, but the book is a history-like book that doesn't explain the simple words you need such as telling you what the hell is "proper art vocabulary". This whole class went over my head and I was left behind failing this class. but what pisses me off the most and what I seem so unfair, is we had an assignment due where we had to write a four page essay on a theme comparing & contrasting three artists who uses this theme. I did this as best as I could with what I knew (though I did not know how to do his exact wants) and I turned this in on time. I got a fucking zero because my theme I picked wasn't the correct topic he wanted.
His exact words in his email to me were: "I return to you your art history paper but you will not recieve credit for this assignment, You handed in a report about Romanticist art but the question topic was to compare and contrast themes such as the crucifixation, entombment, susanna and the Elderes, or other choices. Your paper does not answer the question." Now the assignment sheet I recieved said nothing about the specific themes he had said, it just said "themes" so I picked a theme thinking it was what he wanted then I did my best comparing & contrasting the three artists' work that used Romanticists, including the three paintings and I had it least four pages. I turned this essay of mine in on time hopeing least for a C since I know I didnt' use "proper vocabulary for art" but I hoped for partial credit. So this morning when I recieved the email back after a few days of sending it in, my heart dropped finding out I will be getting a zero instead just because I incorrectly did the wrong "theme". How the hell is that fair? I did the work and turned it in on time! Don't I get something? Shit, I feel like I put all that effort in for nothing. What was the point in even doing it if I knew I was just going to get a zero? This pisses me off so much because I seriously tried and get tossed to the side as nothing. My teacher doesn't seemed to care that I did the work, but that it wasn't exactly what he wanted. I would accept a D on it, but not a zero. It's like a slap in the face for me cause I am a hard working studnet who does try her best.
This teacher of mine seemed to not notice or care that he left a student behind. He only assigned three assingments (with the essay) which I completed those too (those were easily done) but I hadn't learn the material to pass the tests so I flunked those. As I said before he never truly taught me the basics, he seemed to assume that the whole class knew what he was talking about (though most of the class did since they majored in that subject). I was just left behind and my best wasn't enough. He assinged no extra assignments to interact with the material to least pull the grade up, he just lectured in front of a screen about specific paintings and assumed we would read in our large book about the material which doesn't explain the basics.
I never truly had that happent to me, I've had teachers who talked down to me, assigned too much work, or not enough work, but never one who gave me a zero due to teh wrong work done. Once in 5th grade I did get lectured for doing the wrong homework in a math class because I copied down the wrong work on the board, and did the wrong pages. But that was elemetiry school, this is college so shouldn't I get partial credit for that essay? I just see it as very unfair since he never exclaimed what themes he wanted, and just marked it as a zero because it wasn't the correct theme. I got tossed aside as I was nothing, not even a 10% that it got turned in on time finished.
I know others have had teachers like that, but why do they teach when they set the bar too high where they leave students behind? Teachers' job is to teach us, right? Well can't they do a better job where students can least pass the class? Some students do try their best but they can't survive on being thrown into the wild without proper directions, they will get eaten alive and fail. But I am a good, successful studnet for this class is only the 2nd class I ever failed in my life (first was Chemistry in 12th grade). That has to say something about me and the teachers who teach me.
This is the end of my rant and I will continue to try my best even if it's not good enough for some teachers.
This particular rant is about those teachers not good at teaching or they don't see that they left a couple of their students behind in the dust when teaching the other students. Since I been in college (In a Sophmore) I've had least two teachers like this. One was last year where she piled assignments on us and told us to do them, she breifly went through a tutorial of the new lesson for that day and handed out directions for us then let us loose on the work. That's fine but my complaint with her is she gave out too much assingments with short deadlines where some of the work couldn't be completed unless you had the program at home (it was a computer class) but I did not. So I earned a C in that class (a decent grade but low due to the assignments I had no time to complete). Though as bad as that sounds, what's worse is all her students expect for very few actually complted all the assingments, the rest, like me, hadn't the time. Was this poor teaching skills or she just over-estimated our abilities? But I passed the class so my complaints are low on this teacher since I am pleased I wasn't left behind the other students.
This semester (2012) I have another teacher who sadly left me behind and set the bar way too high for me where I feel my best isn't good enough. It's a Art History class (something on Reinassance) where the teacher didn't teach me where I could learn what I need to learn to pass the class. He's the type to make you read on your own and listen while he lectured in class about things you should already know, but for those who first time taking this specfic type of class has no clue what he's talking about. He is a nice teacher personality wise, but his teaching is strict and precise. He wants you do what exactly the directions say without any lee-way, such as "Discuss using the proper art vocabulary of how this painting works in this time period" or "compare and contrast using proper art vocabulary these specific artists" and he will count off if you do not exactly do that. He assumes you will know this by reading the book, but the book is a history-like book that doesn't explain the simple words you need such as telling you what the hell is "proper art vocabulary". This whole class went over my head and I was left behind failing this class. but what pisses me off the most and what I seem so unfair, is we had an assignment due where we had to write a four page essay on a theme comparing & contrasting three artists who uses this theme. I did this as best as I could with what I knew (though I did not know how to do his exact wants) and I turned this in on time. I got a fucking zero because my theme I picked wasn't the correct topic he wanted.
His exact words in his email to me were: "I return to you your art history paper but you will not recieve credit for this assignment, You handed in a report about Romanticist art but the question topic was to compare and contrast themes such as the crucifixation, entombment, susanna and the Elderes, or other choices. Your paper does not answer the question." Now the assignment sheet I recieved said nothing about the specific themes he had said, it just said "themes" so I picked a theme thinking it was what he wanted then I did my best comparing & contrasting the three artists' work that used Romanticists, including the three paintings and I had it least four pages. I turned this essay of mine in on time hopeing least for a C since I know I didnt' use "proper vocabulary for art" but I hoped for partial credit. So this morning when I recieved the email back after a few days of sending it in, my heart dropped finding out I will be getting a zero instead just because I incorrectly did the wrong "theme". How the hell is that fair? I did the work and turned it in on time! Don't I get something? Shit, I feel like I put all that effort in for nothing. What was the point in even doing it if I knew I was just going to get a zero? This pisses me off so much because I seriously tried and get tossed to the side as nothing. My teacher doesn't seemed to care that I did the work, but that it wasn't exactly what he wanted. I would accept a D on it, but not a zero. It's like a slap in the face for me cause I am a hard working studnet who does try her best.
This teacher of mine seemed to not notice or care that he left a student behind. He only assigned three assingments (with the essay) which I completed those too (those were easily done) but I hadn't learn the material to pass the tests so I flunked those. As I said before he never truly taught me the basics, he seemed to assume that the whole class knew what he was talking about (though most of the class did since they majored in that subject). I was just left behind and my best wasn't enough. He assinged no extra assignments to interact with the material to least pull the grade up, he just lectured in front of a screen about specific paintings and assumed we would read in our large book about the material which doesn't explain the basics.
I never truly had that happent to me, I've had teachers who talked down to me, assigned too much work, or not enough work, but never one who gave me a zero due to teh wrong work done. Once in 5th grade I did get lectured for doing the wrong homework in a math class because I copied down the wrong work on the board, and did the wrong pages. But that was elemetiry school, this is college so shouldn't I get partial credit for that essay? I just see it as very unfair since he never exclaimed what themes he wanted, and just marked it as a zero because it wasn't the correct theme. I got tossed aside as I was nothing, not even a 10% that it got turned in on time finished.
I know others have had teachers like that, but why do they teach when they set the bar too high where they leave students behind? Teachers' job is to teach us, right? Well can't they do a better job where students can least pass the class? Some students do try their best but they can't survive on being thrown into the wild without proper directions, they will get eaten alive and fail. But I am a good, successful studnet for this class is only the 2nd class I ever failed in my life (first was Chemistry in 12th grade). That has to say something about me and the teachers who teach me.
This is the end of my rant and I will continue to try my best even if it's not good enough for some teachers.
Sunday, April 22, 2012
It's Never Enough
Here is a song that describes my relationship with my parents a bit. No it's not exactly the same, but in a way it is. I had a fight with my dad today over something stupid and no matter what I do, it won't please him where I won't piss him off with something. You see we dont' always agree, and sometimes when he disagrees I get the feeling he thinks my opinion is "wrong" (which he admitted once before that he did think some of my opinions are wrong) and that makes me defensive which makes him think I "block" him out or "i don't care for his opinions". I do care but I can't have him bashing my opinions just because there different than his. He gets mad with me when my opinions differ but I can't keep my mouth shut because he gets even madder cause I'm "blocking him out". So what do I fucking do? I can't keep speaking what I think cause it makes him mad but once I go silent he gets mad at that too. The only way to please him all the time is being a perky, always-agreeing, faking a smile person that spends 24/7 with family time. Cause I tried other ways, it doesn't end peacefully... I can't be damn happy all the time and I can't open up to them with every problem I have, sometimes I'm just quiet! I do have different opinions, but I can't voice them cause others disagree and make it out like I'm "wrong" and then get damn pissed off once I defend them! How the hell am I the bad guy?? I don't know what hte hell to do! I truly don't... It's never enough...never... no matter what I'm pissing him off in some way when we argue... and it hurts when he says shit like "I'm beginning to not give a fuck anymore" about my opinions... please someone tell me what to do cause I hit a wall. Well this song is dedicated to that arguemnet today...
Never Enough - Five Finger Death Punch (FFDP)
I'm so fed up with everyone around me
No one seems to care
I'm just so far gone and nothing's gonna change
I'll never be the same
It's always do this, do that, everything they want to
I don't wanna live that way
Every chance they get they're always pushing me away
It's never enough, no it's never enough
No matter what I say
It's never enough, no it's never enough
I'll never be what you want me to be
It's all so messed up and no one ever listens
Everyone's deranged
I'm just so fucked up and I'm never gonna change
I wanna lay it all to waste
They're always say this, say that, nothing that you want to
I don't wanna live that way
Every chance they get they're always shoving me aside
It's never enough, no it's never enough
No matter what I say
It's never enough, no it's never enough
I'll never be what you want me to be
I'M DONE!
In the end we're all just chalk lines on the concrete
Drawn only to be washed away
For the time that I've been given
I am what I am
I'd rather hate you for everything you are
Than ever love you for something you are not
I'd rather you hate me for everything I am
Than have you love me for something that I can't
It's never enough, it's never enough
No matter what I say
It's never enough, no it's never enough
No matter who I try to be
It's never enough, no it's never enough
No matter how I try to taste
It's never enough, never never enough
I'll never be what you want me to be
No one seems to care
I'm just so far gone and nothing's gonna change
I'll never be the same
It's always do this, do that, everything they want to
I don't wanna live that way
Every chance they get they're always pushing me away
It's never enough, no it's never enough
No matter what I say
It's never enough, no it's never enough
I'll never be what you want me to be
It's all so messed up and no one ever listens
Everyone's deranged
I'm just so fucked up and I'm never gonna change
I wanna lay it all to waste
They're always say this, say that, nothing that you want to
I don't wanna live that way
Every chance they get they're always shoving me aside
It's never enough, no it's never enough
No matter what I say
It's never enough, no it's never enough
I'll never be what you want me to be
I'M DONE!
In the end we're all just chalk lines on the concrete
Drawn only to be washed away
For the time that I've been given
I am what I am
I'd rather hate you for everything you are
Than ever love you for something you are not
I'd rather you hate me for everything I am
Than have you love me for something that I can't
It's never enough, it's never enough
No matter what I say
It's never enough, no it's never enough
No matter who I try to be
It's never enough, no it's never enough
No matter how I try to taste
It's never enough, never never enough
I'll never be what you want me to be
Thursday, April 19, 2012
"Stupid is making the same mistake over and over while expecting different results"
I am an honest and genuine person so when I call someone "stupid" or "idiot" then you know I mean it, and it has to be bad when I insult someone since those that know me will know I rarely insult people. When I call someone Stupid/idiot is because they commit actions over and over without thinking about the coincenqunces of their actions and then whine about it. We all know people like this, they screw up and come crying for help. Sadly, I know couple of them and few of them always comes to me for advice hoping I can "fix" the situation. Well after telling so much advice and the person doesn't listen to it, there's not much I can do.
People that make the same mistakes over and over are truly idiots because they don't learn from their mistakes even when it's pointed out to them and people warned them beforehand. Why are people like this? I'm still trying to figure out the answer to that question, but I have noticed the most common mistakes are in the romance section of life. I know most everyone wants to find their true love and spend their lives in happiness, but some people desire that so much that they rush into relationships without thinking and most times it ends horribly. I see it all the time and it baffles me with certain people who knows what they're doing wrong but continue to do it; such as rushing things.
Like this one person has "fell in love" with eight different people in his/her life and was engaged to least five of them because he/she believed he/she has found the "one" with each person when the relationship just started. This person kept rushing things like that and all the relationships ended sour, because he/she didn't think. When you first meet someone you will feel infatuation which is similar to love but it's not, it's a giddy feeling that leaves you like on cloud nine, but some people mistake this feeling for love and jump head first into the relationship planning on getting married. They don't take it slow and let hte relationship build up so they will know their feelings are true. I seen this with many people I know and they still make that same mistake over and over, then whining about it.
But what annoys me the most about all this is how i give advice to these people hoping to help but they don't listen to me and when it turns out I was correct they are already whining about it and making up excuses for their failures. Excuses such as "well I wasn't really in love, I was just lying to myself" or "They were just using me". It's never their fault in their minds and then they find someone else doing the exact same thing over expecting this time it will be different. Then when that goes badly they come back whining again. It's a never ending cycle that makes me mad cause when I try to help they don't listen very well. They can't own up to their mistakes and make it right in the future.
Well all I can say about these people without ranting more is stop giving advice to them and let them figure it out on their own. It's their own fault for getting into the mess they're in cause they have been warned and they ignored that warning, so they need to stop crying and own up to it then don't make the same mistakes again. That's the only thing you can do with these people cause if they don't listen, then why give more advice? They are idiots and as a saying goes "you can't fix stupid" which is true when they don't change their ways.
People that make the same mistakes over and over are truly idiots because they don't learn from their mistakes even when it's pointed out to them and people warned them beforehand. Why are people like this? I'm still trying to figure out the answer to that question, but I have noticed the most common mistakes are in the romance section of life. I know most everyone wants to find their true love and spend their lives in happiness, but some people desire that so much that they rush into relationships without thinking and most times it ends horribly. I see it all the time and it baffles me with certain people who knows what they're doing wrong but continue to do it; such as rushing things.
Like this one person has "fell in love" with eight different people in his/her life and was engaged to least five of them because he/she believed he/she has found the "one" with each person when the relationship just started. This person kept rushing things like that and all the relationships ended sour, because he/she didn't think. When you first meet someone you will feel infatuation which is similar to love but it's not, it's a giddy feeling that leaves you like on cloud nine, but some people mistake this feeling for love and jump head first into the relationship planning on getting married. They don't take it slow and let hte relationship build up so they will know their feelings are true. I seen this with many people I know and they still make that same mistake over and over, then whining about it.
But what annoys me the most about all this is how i give advice to these people hoping to help but they don't listen to me and when it turns out I was correct they are already whining about it and making up excuses for their failures. Excuses such as "well I wasn't really in love, I was just lying to myself" or "They were just using me". It's never their fault in their minds and then they find someone else doing the exact same thing over expecting this time it will be different. Then when that goes badly they come back whining again. It's a never ending cycle that makes me mad cause when I try to help they don't listen very well. They can't own up to their mistakes and make it right in the future.
Well all I can say about these people without ranting more is stop giving advice to them and let them figure it out on their own. It's their own fault for getting into the mess they're in cause they have been warned and they ignored that warning, so they need to stop crying and own up to it then don't make the same mistakes again. That's the only thing you can do with these people cause if they don't listen, then why give more advice? They are idiots and as a saying goes "you can't fix stupid" which is true when they don't change their ways.
Friday, April 6, 2012
This caged bird dreams of flying
A bird is caged to protect him/her, but all that cage is doing is keeping the bird trapped and he/she will never learn how to fly. I'm sure everyone feels this way, but I know for a fact those with over-protective parents such as I, has felt this way all the time. Everyone least knows of one or has one of those parents that protect their children so much that you lose the freedom that others have.
Over-protective parents love their kids so much that they want to protect them from everything and often set strict limits. Limits that effect your social life.
Well, my parents aren't as strict as others, but still according to everyone I know my parents are over-protective of me and even I agree they need to let me go. I missed a lot of things growing up that my peers already experianced and I felt left out. Not to mention their over-protective ways effected me mentally in ways concerning my personality.
I hate how over-protective my parents are cause I feel my life is passing me by without me taking control of it. They are always telling me their opinions and pushing their beliefs onto me even though inside I disagree (I never voice it). I am so nervous and dependent on others that I can't fucntion as those that had a none-sheltered life. I'm paranoid of the world where I dont' take risks. I try to talk to them but with me being under their roof, I don't have much say in the things I want (such as seeing my fiance more). I rely on them to bring and take me to my fiance's cause even if I had my liscencs they don't like me driving to a big city alone, but he can come get me (if he had his car). They pick the times when they pick me up because it's "their time" and will call me "selfish" if I protest. Where i was sheltered I never expressed my emotions when I was younger so now I don't have control over them, making me very sensitive near tears when I get upset over something. Being sensitive has made it hard for me to talk to them, and compromise because they see me upset and think I'm arguing, which makes them mad.
My parents want me to open up more, but once i do they don't agree with the things I say and sometimes it turns into an argument, so that's why I hardly ever voice my opinions. What's the point? I damn feel helpless and trapped, I have no control over my life. I hate how they interfere with my love life when they see me upset over something. i know they wish to help and it hurts them to see me hurting, but it's my life and they need to let me make my own choices. I can't learn if they do things for me, I can't be independent if they make me depend on them, I can't have a voice if they disagree with my opinions, I can't be outgoing if they don't allow me freedom, I can't live my life if they keep controling my life! I love them but I wish they will let me go already, I wish to fly away like the grown bird I am. I don't care if it is "selfish" of me to want these things because I been living underneath them all my life having them influence my life and my choices i make, I want to make myself happy now. Is it wrong of me wanting to live my life in the way it'll make me happy?
Until I can get out of this house I'm stuck this way... under their roof is their rules no matter how much I disagree and dislike it. I don't understand how parents can be over-protective when all it does is cause more harm to the child than good. If you don't let anything happen to them then nothing will happen to them.
Over-protective parents love their kids so much that they want to protect them from everything and often set strict limits. Limits that effect your social life.
- Most kids from these parents, don't get to have sleep-overs with friends until a late age due to the parents feeling uncomfortable letting their child sleep at a stranger's house. If the parents don't know your friends' parents or who else will be in the house then it's very unlikly you will sleep over. The same goes with going to places with friends (such as the mall, thier house, etc.).
- They often have you contact them constantly telling them where you are or if you are alright, through the day when you are away from them.
- They do everything for you so you don't have to worry yourself over anything. They push you to be "good" by getting good grades and be a modiled indiviual.
- No dating until they think you are old enough (which is mostly after you graduate high school). If you do date then you are limited to what you can do with your gf/bf and like any parent no person is "good enough" for you.
Well, my parents aren't as strict as others, but still according to everyone I know my parents are over-protective of me and even I agree they need to let me go. I missed a lot of things growing up that my peers already experianced and I felt left out. Not to mention their over-protective ways effected me mentally in ways concerning my personality.
- Growing up I was a very shy child and had trouble making friends because I was so sheltered I didn't react much with other kids. When I did obtain friends, I couldnt' spend the night unless my parents met and learned all the information they needed about my friends' parents, and most times they didnt' feel comfortable letting me spend a whole night away from home (I barely spent it away with family). I felt awful making up excuses why I couldn't come over because I didn't want my friends looking down on me or having to go through all that mess of questions my parents would ask. It wasn't until I got into high school that I spent a night with a friend, but had to convince my parents to even let me go to her birthday party.
- Then my parents being paranoid as they are, I couldn't browse the internet without supervision when I was a teenager due to someone could "hack into our computer' to find me. The only reason I got a email address (at age 13) was because a family member set me up with one, then i told my parents who was very skeptical of it and asked for my password. I wasn't allowed to play any online games nor go on forums. In High school i was finaly allowed to go on forums but no online games. (though like any teen I did it anyway behind their backs). They also discouraged me to talk to anyone older than me on those forums.
- I couldnt' date until I was 18 because they wanted me to focus on only school which left me sad and very lonely when I saw my peers dating as I could not until a certain age. I first have to complete least 2 years of college before thinking about marriage (though last year I did get engaged, only telling them 3 days later). Despite I'm 22, I cannot "make out" with my fiance nor do anything perverted with him because they want me to wait for marriage before sex and any "inappropiate" behavior (such as touching thighs, breasts, butt, etc.). If we are in the same room we must keep the door open. And not to mention my parents intervene in my relationship if they see me upset or something. For instance just a month ago I was having a lack of communication problem with my fiance and it depressed me, so they pushed their opinions on me and almost called him or his parents to "fix things". They say "they have that right" since I'm their daughter. It is putting stress on me and my fiance.
- When i'm not at home, I must send a text message to them if I go anywhere else (such as the mall, someone's house, restuaruant, etc.) and when I get back. When I was younger I had to call them to ask for permission if I could go somewhere. Again half the time i made up excuses because I feared the answer they'd give me was a "no" since in the past most times they never let me. I felt ashamed how my friends rolled thier eyes at how my parents were acting.
- My dad wouldn't allow me to wear makeup until I was in high school. Though I am thankful my mom let me get my ears peirced when i was in 6th grade. My dad is obsessed with my hair cause he gets annoyed when I go get it trimmed saying a girl should have long hair, it's beautiful. Though I love my long hair it is a hassle to have it so long and I hate trying to convince my dad to stop getting annoyed.
- When I was a teenager and left home alone I was not allowed to step out of the house nor to answer the door for strangers because my parents feared someone would abduct me.
- If I do make plans, I must tell them days in advance (least 2 days) before the event. Unlike others I can't just decide to go to a friend's house a day prior, which annoys me cause I miss out on things.
I hate how over-protective my parents are cause I feel my life is passing me by without me taking control of it. They are always telling me their opinions and pushing their beliefs onto me even though inside I disagree (I never voice it). I am so nervous and dependent on others that I can't fucntion as those that had a none-sheltered life. I'm paranoid of the world where I dont' take risks. I try to talk to them but with me being under their roof, I don't have much say in the things I want (such as seeing my fiance more). I rely on them to bring and take me to my fiance's cause even if I had my liscencs they don't like me driving to a big city alone, but he can come get me (if he had his car). They pick the times when they pick me up because it's "their time" and will call me "selfish" if I protest. Where i was sheltered I never expressed my emotions when I was younger so now I don't have control over them, making me very sensitive near tears when I get upset over something. Being sensitive has made it hard for me to talk to them, and compromise because they see me upset and think I'm arguing, which makes them mad.
My parents want me to open up more, but once i do they don't agree with the things I say and sometimes it turns into an argument, so that's why I hardly ever voice my opinions. What's the point? I damn feel helpless and trapped, I have no control over my life. I hate how they interfere with my love life when they see me upset over something. i know they wish to help and it hurts them to see me hurting, but it's my life and they need to let me make my own choices. I can't learn if they do things for me, I can't be independent if they make me depend on them, I can't have a voice if they disagree with my opinions, I can't be outgoing if they don't allow me freedom, I can't live my life if they keep controling my life! I love them but I wish they will let me go already, I wish to fly away like the grown bird I am. I don't care if it is "selfish" of me to want these things because I been living underneath them all my life having them influence my life and my choices i make, I want to make myself happy now. Is it wrong of me wanting to live my life in the way it'll make me happy?
Until I can get out of this house I'm stuck this way... under their roof is their rules no matter how much I disagree and dislike it. I don't understand how parents can be over-protective when all it does is cause more harm to the child than good. If you don't let anything happen to them then nothing will happen to them.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Apparently I'm a "chicken" now
We all have least one of those "friends" that talk badly about us behind our backs. They have those big egos where they talk to make them look better but it just proves how jealous they are of you. They're annoying, arne't they? Well I have one and she just loves getting drunk to talk to the wrong person about me. This post is about her jealous ways.
No names are named in my blog for privacy issues and safety.
Here how it is, I been friends with this person for years (since 6th grade) and I always been a good friend to her, though she wasn't a good friend to me by bringing me down by lowering my confidence in myself and her opinions were brutal, though I stayed her friend due to i valued friendship too much. Anyway, well since we graduated we drifted apart and lived our own lives. When we did talk it was regular chitchat and it was short. She only talked to me when she had time, though I tried talking to her. Well, it's been a year now since I last spoken to her (back in August when she learned I was engaged) but unfortuantly it was a month ago I heard the first time that she been talking badly behind my back for years, and worse it was to my fiance (who she is hassling whenever he gets online). She is drunk when she contacts him and automatically starts complaining despite the many times he tells her to stop and tries ignoring her.
The first insult I learned she said was about when I broke up with my ex years ago, she had said "She should never had a boyfriend just like her parents wanted" Which isnt' surprising since she said long ago that she and he dated and commenting to me when I first dated him that "I can't believe you're dating my cast off". So she wasn't fond of my first relationship and had to speak badly about it. Though I do have to say she has many exes through the years and she always had some sort of boyfriend, so why does she care who I dated?
The second insult I heard was back in August 2011 right after I got engaged (which she got engaged a week later after I did once she learned about mine) she got drunk (once again) contacing my fiance saying that he's making a mistake when he "could have the whole buffett instead of the weak salad" refering to her as the "buffett" and I the "weak salad", and then she says that I'm "uglier and less fortuante" than her. What friend does this? To hit on another's man and talk trash about them? Not to mention she was already engaged herself! I let it go since she was drunk and without the proof (it was deleted) she would just deny it.
Well months passed and here we are today when I learned a third time she became drunk and a slip of the tongue to my fiance once again (he really needs to block her...). She started complaining about her life and how much of a "chicken" I am. I ask you how am I the chicken? Last I checked I had no feathers nor a beak, and unlike her I'm not the one too scared to say say those insults to my face.
See how jealousy makes a friend a horrible fiend? Friends like this aren't friends but insecure cowards who have to bring down others to make themselves feel better about their own life. I will say I'm not offended by her words because it's pointless to be, I just want her to stop hassling my fiance, but I know she'll get what's coming to her. I am not intimidated by her either cause by her actions, I am far better than she will ever be. I have a good life compared to hers, I have people who do love me where they refuse to believe her ugly words, I have a loving fiance who will defend my name no matter what, I have a loving heart and a nice personality that makes me beautiful, and I have a bright future. So tell me how is she more 'fortuante" than me? Though it does confuse me why she keeps talkign about me? I haven't talked to her in a year so where does she get the right to keep bringing up my name? I spoke no harsh words about her nor do I do any actions for her to complain about. I think she's obsessed with me to be honest since she is so jealous that she has to talk about me and her being drunk has destroyed her common sense cause she doesnt' realize that whatever she says to my fiance will get back to me.
If you do have a "friend" like this, just remember that they are no friend and they are just jealous of you. Jealousy is an ugly trait and worse when people act upon it, but dont' let it bring you down cause it just means you are far better than them. Embrace it cause as the saying goes "what comes around goes around" that jealous person will get what's coming to them in a matter of time. Let karma deal with them as you dance in the glory of beign better since that jealous person already just proved you are better by talking about you. I do advise if it does get worse confront them about it maturaly and stop being friends with them cause friends dont' talk trash behind friends backs.
No names are named in my blog for privacy issues and safety.
Here how it is, I been friends with this person for years (since 6th grade) and I always been a good friend to her, though she wasn't a good friend to me by bringing me down by lowering my confidence in myself and her opinions were brutal, though I stayed her friend due to i valued friendship too much. Anyway, well since we graduated we drifted apart and lived our own lives. When we did talk it was regular chitchat and it was short. She only talked to me when she had time, though I tried talking to her. Well, it's been a year now since I last spoken to her (back in August when she learned I was engaged) but unfortuantly it was a month ago I heard the first time that she been talking badly behind my back for years, and worse it was to my fiance (who she is hassling whenever he gets online). She is drunk when she contacts him and automatically starts complaining despite the many times he tells her to stop and tries ignoring her.
The first insult I learned she said was about when I broke up with my ex years ago, she had said "She should never had a boyfriend just like her parents wanted" Which isnt' surprising since she said long ago that she and he dated and commenting to me when I first dated him that "I can't believe you're dating my cast off". So she wasn't fond of my first relationship and had to speak badly about it. Though I do have to say she has many exes through the years and she always had some sort of boyfriend, so why does she care who I dated?
The second insult I heard was back in August 2011 right after I got engaged (which she got engaged a week later after I did once she learned about mine) she got drunk (once again) contacing my fiance saying that he's making a mistake when he "could have the whole buffett instead of the weak salad" refering to her as the "buffett" and I the "weak salad", and then she says that I'm "uglier and less fortuante" than her. What friend does this? To hit on another's man and talk trash about them? Not to mention she was already engaged herself! I let it go since she was drunk and without the proof (it was deleted) she would just deny it.
Well months passed and here we are today when I learned a third time she became drunk and a slip of the tongue to my fiance once again (he really needs to block her...). She started complaining about her life and how much of a "chicken" I am. I ask you how am I the chicken? Last I checked I had no feathers nor a beak, and unlike her I'm not the one too scared to say say those insults to my face.
See how jealousy makes a friend a horrible fiend? Friends like this aren't friends but insecure cowards who have to bring down others to make themselves feel better about their own life. I will say I'm not offended by her words because it's pointless to be, I just want her to stop hassling my fiance, but I know she'll get what's coming to her. I am not intimidated by her either cause by her actions, I am far better than she will ever be. I have a good life compared to hers, I have people who do love me where they refuse to believe her ugly words, I have a loving fiance who will defend my name no matter what, I have a loving heart and a nice personality that makes me beautiful, and I have a bright future. So tell me how is she more 'fortuante" than me? Though it does confuse me why she keeps talkign about me? I haven't talked to her in a year so where does she get the right to keep bringing up my name? I spoke no harsh words about her nor do I do any actions for her to complain about. I think she's obsessed with me to be honest since she is so jealous that she has to talk about me and her being drunk has destroyed her common sense cause she doesnt' realize that whatever she says to my fiance will get back to me.
If you do have a "friend" like this, just remember that they are no friend and they are just jealous of you. Jealousy is an ugly trait and worse when people act upon it, but dont' let it bring you down cause it just means you are far better than them. Embrace it cause as the saying goes "what comes around goes around" that jealous person will get what's coming to them in a matter of time. Let karma deal with them as you dance in the glory of beign better since that jealous person already just proved you are better by talking about you. I do advise if it does get worse confront them about it maturaly and stop being friends with them cause friends dont' talk trash behind friends backs.
Monday, March 12, 2012
Obsession
They say if you have a crush on someone longer than 4 months it's considered love, but when does love pass the line into obsession? How does one know if they passed the line? Love is a strong feeling that leaves one confused, mixed emotions, and takes control of your mind, heart, and soul. Love can make you think about someone all the time, start of a second to the longest years, and you won't forget who you love. It can make you do stuff you normaly would never do just to be with the person you love, and you would do anything to make them happy. It can make you miss a person until your heart breaks and hurts the worse when that person does not return the same feelings. That is symptoms of love, but I ask you, what makes someone cross the line into obsession? How does the one know the difference between the two?
Obessession is when you base every moment of you life around one person, and only that person until your every descision is based on him/her. You will do anything in your capability to be with this person no matter what or who gets in the way. Often spreading lies to others that you are with this person because it's what you've been dreaming about since you fell in love. But is it love? To never move on in your life because you desire to be with only this person even if there is someone out there who could make you just as happy; Would you risk new happiness to feel forever pain because you can't move on? That is obsession. Seeing only what you want to see and forever wallowing in misery due to refusing happiness until you have that person is far worse obessions there is which will lead to dangerous situations. Dangers such as stalking this person knowing every detail about his/her life, lying to everyone to subatoge any "competition" you have with this person so you can be together, and even self-harming yourself once you don't get your way.
How do we know when we cross the line into obsession? How does one get out of it? Can they get out of it once they reach that critical point? Can we help someone like this or are they doomed? The major question is, how do we prevent obsession? We see the signs but confuse them with love and once you're in love you are already in a confusing place in the beginning, how do we decipher when we cross the line? What if one refuses to see what they're blinded to? When the term "move on" no longer works when the person refuses to see the positive in any situation due to being completly fixated on that person; is when you have crossed into obsession. Obsessed people won't move on and refuses happiness then complains about being miserable. Beware the obsession and look for the signs before it's too late.
Obessession is when you base every moment of you life around one person, and only that person until your every descision is based on him/her. You will do anything in your capability to be with this person no matter what or who gets in the way. Often spreading lies to others that you are with this person because it's what you've been dreaming about since you fell in love. But is it love? To never move on in your life because you desire to be with only this person even if there is someone out there who could make you just as happy; Would you risk new happiness to feel forever pain because you can't move on? That is obsession. Seeing only what you want to see and forever wallowing in misery due to refusing happiness until you have that person is far worse obessions there is which will lead to dangerous situations. Dangers such as stalking this person knowing every detail about his/her life, lying to everyone to subatoge any "competition" you have with this person so you can be together, and even self-harming yourself once you don't get your way.
How do we know when we cross the line into obsession? How does one get out of it? Can they get out of it once they reach that critical point? Can we help someone like this or are they doomed? The major question is, how do we prevent obsession? We see the signs but confuse them with love and once you're in love you are already in a confusing place in the beginning, how do we decipher when we cross the line? What if one refuses to see what they're blinded to? When the term "move on" no longer works when the person refuses to see the positive in any situation due to being completly fixated on that person; is when you have crossed into obsession. Obsessed people won't move on and refuses happiness then complains about being miserable. Beware the obsession and look for the signs before it's too late.
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